Here I am sitting on my own in the world.
Not because they all desert me because I desert them
I hurt them because I say things I don’t mean
I hurt them because I desert them when they try and help

For all of gods power to keep me in life
I just wanna take my life away
To put people out of their misery
To allow them to forget

I will never forgive myself for the life I choose
There will always be something that I wish I did
Always something I wish I hadn’t
Surely there’s a better life than this

If any one has an answer I can take
And an answer that will give me hope
Or an answer that will give me courage
Please give it to me now.

This is a final declaration
Of how I feel the way I never let it show
For all the people who try and help
I never let them in for fear of hurting

This isn’t the hurt I feel I don’t care about me
It’s the hurt they feel when I say the things
That hurt me deep. Deep down inside
That’s where it hurts when I can’t help them help me

I will not resort to pain
Cutting or purposely injuring myself
But it feels as if that is the only way out
Of the life I feel I’m swimming through.

Life isn't in such a despair you can't swim your way through your misery

Sometimes we do things we wished we never had done

Sometimes we do things we ourselves despised all our lives

Sometimes we just do things without having a moment to stop a think

Life passes by quickly, we're lucky if we get to think

People will pass us by

Laughing

Frowning

Loving

Caring

It doesn't matter

The thing we need to learn is to understand that we are human

Our minds are delicate and any impoetus can cause it to do something
out of character

We can't avoid it, we can't stop it

We have to forgive ourselves

For others to forgive you, first you need to forgive yourself

We make mistakes all the times

Even if sometimes they cost us the most valuable thing in our lives we must move on

We don't have a choice

We must get up and continue to search for that purpose in life

We'll all make it in the end

Doesn't matter what you think, it will

The answer is take the path in front of us

And we'll be waiting on the other side

Join us, we'll be there

Edit: oops i was meant to comment XD anyway, i can feel what's going on through your writing there~ reach down deeper inside and you'll find it, is what i wanna say :)