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_: Either he's lying for attention, or you are real deceiving and real good seeming trustworthy. Horrible situation.

please...dont hurt me any more...i cant take it
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you hoe. you lyin sack of...

Dr. Phil is secretly depressed!

dude.. ur annoying as hell.. i don't understand why u keep iming me and my friends we don't even like talking to you.. wtf. your soo messed up and strange and so full of bs its not even funny.

What happened between us..

I always though you're a cool person, but now because of this lack of communication and how you just keep *avoiding* me or something.. I don't know. I even left you a comment and you didn't even respond with a simple hello. Okay, i miss you. :(

So now this is the start of trying to forget you because what's the use you don't talk to me anyways :( ::ecuts payn::

s....: i promise, no matter which way this turns out, you both will still be loved and supported 100% by all of us i love youu!

a...: same goes to you hun. you can always come talk to me. i'm sure you two can work through this, and even if not, you have all of us here as well. love youu too!

a.....: is it really true? my wifee and my cousin are no more?? what am i going to do at the lake without you there all the time?

a.....: i do really miss seeing you around. you always make me smile. if and when we do go out for this friends dinner (which i hope will be okay with her because i don't want to be the 'other woman' by mistake) i'll be really excited to go! could it be...

l...: yesterday was sooo much fun! it was the best dance show experience i think i've ever had! and to top it all off we got to meet david hasselhoff and be on et canada!!

_: Forreally, STOP PLAYING GAMES WITH ME. Please. It's annoying and it's not cool. It makes me sad. You're probably the reason why I've been feeling so horrible.

_: Kid, stop going on the computer. You're only 12 and you spend over 16 hours a day on the computer. Seriously, it's not healthy. I will steal your wi-fi card if necessary.

_,_,_: ORANGE CAMERA. I want it. You guys can split the cost and get it for me for Christmas.

N___ : Mehh. You're so addicted, it's not even funny. In fact, it's annoying.

Jo___ : =.= You're so cruel to me, yet I can't admit it. Is this the way you make friends? You're like my closest friend at this school, considering how unsocial I am, so that makes you special. But you're.. just.. >_> <_<

Joy___ : WOW! Compared to your siblings, you have got to be the coolest. XD I can totally conversate to you without you getting distracted by the computer.

Je___ : Yaaay. I've never been so happy with you before. ^_~

I'm glad we're back together. I think I did some major growing up in the past nine months.... And so have you.
It's silly. I was looking for someone else in the past nine months, but nothing fell into place. And I always came back to you.

(Back to you, it always comes around... back to you. Tried to forget you, tried to stay away, but it's too late. - John Mayer, heh heh)

It's always a good time with your soulmate, isn't it? Cherish every moment.

ilyyyy

electric shock: i like your avatar.
CLYDE: i like your signature.. vincent and yuffie!
The___: Hahahaha.
[2_____: Thanks.

: I can't take anymore of this drama. Screw you all.

: omgidooevefosmyouthrtwrkmataewoagy.

K: Thanks babe for everything and listening and just...you know. Everything. I'm going to call you tomorrow probably so yeah...hopefully you're not busy when I call you! Um, I think I've decided... But yeah. You're honestly one of the bestest people ever.
M: You toooo! Thanks for listening and giving me advice and all that lovely stuff. It helped a ton. Really. Ilu guys.
A: I'm so sorry in advance...
L: Thanks for the talks and everythingggg. Really. You've been so awesome.
C: I'm gonna miss youuuuuuuu.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend.
Somewhere along in the bitterness.
And I would have stayed up with you all night.
Had I known how to save a life .

M: im sorry for ever being mad at you. i miss you so much, it's hard for me to leave so many people behind..and i'm moving again while im still trying to get over losing you.

V: what you did that night i will never forget. i know how much courage it took and i thank you so much for that. your one of the strongest and greatest people i know. i love you xx

Dad: you know i only want whats best for you. whatever happens i will still stay strong 100%. even if that means you'll have to leave for 2 months and live in a different country.. just know that i still love you and will do whatever makes you happy. You've only made good choices. No regret the past.

B: im sorry. for everything. for anyone. for what i did. i didnt mean it. i was stupid. immature. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. i hope you can forgive me.

S+B+V+S+M:: not a day goes by when i dont think of you

Dr. Phil wonders why Oprah Winfrey is so agitating!

_____,
last night made me realize how much you don't care for me.
you play around with my mind like i'm a fcuk.ng game.
is that what you were planning to do all along?
did you plan on "talking" to her? come on now..
she writes you comments in rapping format?....
"nah bebs i dont get freaky in the sheets
do i have ewok written over me? from my head to my feet??
however im having a party tomorrow
and you'll be cuming"
yeah she does have ewok written all over her..
is that what you want? an easy woman of kailua..
it's up to you.. i care for you.. i still love you..
i wish i could tell you i still love you.
i don't know what to do anymore.
seems like you've already moved on.

Today's gonna be really hard, for everyone. I know you don't want it to happen, and I'm still having my doubts, but I think it would be best for both of us.

Sighh. I'm starting to miss you.

My heart still beats 10x faster whenever you sign on.

1. Our phone talk made me realized how much we're drifting apart and no matter how much I tell myself we're still going to be friends in two anda half years, it might not be true. I mean, we talked about going to the same college and that would be crazy if we weren't friends anymore and I made a huge decision of going to California.

2. I think about you more than you know. I know we live two hours away but I'd be really hesitant if I had the chance to move. You'd be the only reason, but not only that I feel as if I don't really know you. I don't know what you're capable of and I've heard a lot of bad things. You play me like a cheap card trick and I always fall for it. Maybe that's why A LOT of girls like you and I wouldn't be comfortable with it at all with all the hubbub going on now. I mean, you don't even talk to me now or about me in public. It's confusing.

_: God dammit. I wish I talked to you on the bus today. I see you on the bus like only once a week. And I don't have any classes with you except lunch. I really hate myself. Maybe I'll take the other bus by accident and talk to you tomorrow? Maybe I'll make you listen to my iPod too. You only have like 200 songs on your iPod. Dude, that's just sad. They're all really old bands/songs too. You need newer music.

_: You need to read it. If you don't do anything, I might just give up on you forever and move on. Forreally, I don't want to do that, but you're making me. You're just so impossible to talk to now..

truthfully, i rather be single =/

WHY do you have to act like that around your friends? you're so amazing around me, but maybe you're just being fake.

Yeah, right now. I'd rather be single too.
Instead of being his girlfriend.

Today was....the best. I LOVE you...too bad you're not mine. yet.

I'm having the thought of rather being single the whole time. year and a half.
but i can't say that. I loved him. I love him, but he doesnt deserve it does he?


: why am i still here?

^ It's none of my business and sometimes you might think about it. think before you make the decision, you could end up regreting it.

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Life is confusing. I don't know what I want or what anyone else wants.

: There better not be anymore drama tomorrow. We all know we don't need anymore of it in our lives, so you guys better not start any. -.-

: I just.. can't.. Gah..

__; Miss you lots.

i need your respect. i need your honesty. i need you to show me that you love me with your actions. i don't need crap about you saying how it's hard to not lie to your parents too. i'm not your freakin parents. i'm your girlfriend and i can't put up with this. your parents can put up with it because they're your parents. but i have feelings, and expectations too and just because you have a tendency to lie and get defensive doesn't make it ok that you keep hurting me. i know you'll say you know it's not okay but it's not enough. if you really want to be with me like you say you do, i need you to make a conscious decision to carry through with not lying to me. i know you know it's not fair to me and i know it's not fair. i don't even know why i'm with you. i don't really want to be with you, actually. but i really care about you. maybe we should just be friends.

____:
I keep expecting you to appear out of nowhere... and you do
I don't know what's going on... except that everytime i see you, i'm sinking deeper and deeper...
I keep dreaming and hoping and wishing... but none of it ever comes true.
Oh, why won't anything happen?

_____:
Thank you for your kindness but i would appreciate it if you can please just leave me alone

I feel so bad, and it's not even my fault and I know it. I told you from the START, I'd never ever fall for you and that I'd never go out with and we'd never fall in love or anything like that. I TOLD you you weren't my type and probably would never be and that I'd flat out just always consider you just my best friend. But noo, you have to go and fall in love with me and it's so awkward now, I hate talking to you, knowing you're going to bring me up and how about best friends always fall in love and how you love me and want to be with me and It makes me feel so uncomfortable and awakward and bad when I have to tell you Never. URGH.

Why can't larry feel this way about me.

argh why is timing always off between us !?! i'm busy ur not i'm free ur not...i wanna talk ur busy i wanna come see you i can't. blahh. i miss the summer when it was all different....

__; i want to be with you but i dont ? sounded so much more better in my head then written. your perfect. you're not the problem, it's me. its always me. this happened more then once. i know im going to regret the decision of letting you go, i always did, which is why im holding back on that thought. TRYING to give it a chance, but it aint working. it's just pissing me off more. i think im better of with being by myself. hope you understand.

__; " commited to the chase but not the relationship itself "
^ how much more can you be right ?

___; Help me with my push up test!

_: Whore. I hate you. You're so fcking loud all the time. And such a slut. Why is it that he likes you?
_: Heh. If you like that type girls, you're not right for me. Never really liked you that much in the first place anyways. You don't have a good personality anyways. You're not that cute either.
_: Why does it have to be so hard to detach from this? I really feel like talking to you. It's just.. you're impossible to talk to now. You're not that outgoing when you're with me. It makes no sense! I'd give anything to read your mind for a day. I just really miss talking to you. It's been almost a week now..
_: I'm sorry I wasn't your siamese twin today.. It just looked weird, y'know? I hope you're not mad at me..

____,
you called me by my middle name that was cute.
i never see you in school anymore.. answer your
phone please i wanna talk.

_____,
in secretly like it when you call me hunnie girl.
i miss talking to you. i know your mad at me
for standing you up so much, i wish i could have
another chance.

____,
thanks for laughing at me when i did my
presentation, it really helps when the teacher
laughs and makes you feel stupid.

____:
I'm glad you're constantly there when i'm feeling lonely. Yet the worst way to miss someone is when they're sitting right next to you...
Shoot, how can i stop myself?!

♫ Give anything but i won't give up....

mhmm
dunno what i want in life anymore

Baby, i want it to be the weekend...NOW. 4 days! =]

i love math cause of you. (=

___; That's a first.

_: Nearly a week. Close. Very close. I miss talking to you. Haven't seen you in a while.. It's making me sad. I want you to sign online. NOW. I just can't take it anymore. Two days. Two days and if I don't hear anything from you, I just might give up completely.

_: YOU MAKE ME CONFUSEDDD! I asked some people. They say you think she's annoying too? Why don't you run away when you see her coming then?

_,_,_,_,_,_: Haha, I can't believe I got ALL you guys (except _) to come to tennis. Even though there really wasn't tennis practice. We had fun though. WE SHALL GO AGAIN TOMORROW! Pwahahahahahaha. < Eww did I just do that?

_: You planed it, didn't you? Are you planning to ignore and avoid me the rest of your life?

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Glad you're not that mad at me. Well i know i shouldn't have blamed the whole thing on him, especially cause he let me go and hang out with you guys (which was hella fun btw) but yeah, idk. Sorry girl. You know i still love you =) hehe even though you kinda pissed me off that night cause yoou shouldn't have been with him like that. You shouldn't have. Tasha is engaged to him. Engaged. But then again, who am i to tell you. You already knew. You knew the first night you met him. Matter? F uck no.


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You and i rarely know each other. Mmmmm, well that's not a problem i guess. We have been trying to, you know. I was kinda shocked though that you asked me cause the way i was acting when we first met was lame. But obviously, you don't think so. I hope this has nothing to do wiht my outer appearance and what you've heard. If so, you're gone. LOL, well i hope i get to see you this weekend and i'm really looking forward to it. And i guess you weren't lying about the whole "217 being your house number" haha. Well idk. Sorry for doubting you.

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SLUT! fdjsalfjdslfds.

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i
hate
your
guts.

You,
I'm S0 SICK OF IT. I'm f**king done with you && your stupid bullshit. I'm done trying to f**king figure you out. I don't care anymore. I'M S0 OVER IT. FREAL this time. f**k YOU && YOUR SELFISH ASS. It hurts HELLA MUCH but that what you gotta do.

OOOhh && G0 FOR IT. I knew it.

You,
I WISH I didn't get attached to you guys.

You,
Damn, you're fine

__; what a shitty ass day. argh.

__; somehow i really learned how too appriciate you's today. i love you, no matter how much i say i hate you. & you're sorta right, i AM kinda lucky compare to others, but that doesnt give you the right to think you're always right. i know im a needy & spoiled bitch. thanks (=

gosh, i can't believe you're actually coming. i don't know what to do with you.

Thanks for tonight and for walking me back, even though I live hecka far. It was really sweet of you. :)