Papi,
How long has it been? I remember a time when I would have given so much for you. I threw everything out of my life until only you remained. You could have asked me for anything and I would have surrendered it to you. You were my first for everything... love...lover... I shared everything with you, I held nothing back. I gave you all of me... but still you hid from me. Still you betrayed me like no other. Never in my life had I felt so horrible. So close to the breaking point that I thought I might dive into the darkness just so I could sleep forever. Sleep without the pain. Sleep without having to wake up reaching for you, knowing that you were not beside me. You made me feel like less of a person. How could you have given in to them? How could you touch them? Did you whisper the same things in their ears? Did you tell them the same things you once said to me? Why? I would have given you everything. Why did you trade it in for a brief moment... a small fling?
I tried to leave you in the past. After all I was the one who finally left. You scarred me. Do you know that? You have ruined me for everybody else. Because I don't know that I can ever fully trust again. You crippled my ability to love. I will never love anyone the way I first loved you. So pure so innocent.
I hate myself for even missing you now. I hate the way I still want you by my side and in my bed. I hate the way that I have to force myself not to touch you when your near. But most of all I hate the way you want to come back and make it better. I hate the all too familiar promises that spill from your mouth. I hate it all. I just wish I didn't still love you. Granted it's not love like it used to be... But it's still enough that it could get me into trouble with you. I will ask only once. Please leave me be. Let this be a gentle parting. I pray you didn't take me for granted. I love you I LOVE YOU... but I can't do it again. Te amo papi... Te amo amor de mi vida... Siento quemarse. Adiós mi amor. Usted vivirá por siempre dentro de las heridas que usted me dio.

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OK so this all seems pretty strange to me, but I still think it is a good idea so here it goes. (and btw one is goin out to someone i lost a while ago but i have no1 to talk to bout it so this is all iv got).

Dear dad (Dad?),
Is it true that everything happens for a reason? It sounds too good to be true, and I just cant believe that all the bad sh*t that I see happening and the bad sh*t that happens to me does any good and serves any purpose...especially with what happened to you, and everything that happened because of it. I know its selfish of me to want this especially when so many people have it worse than I do, but I just wish every day that I could see you in more ways than just the picture of you that I carry everywhere. By the way, my heart is far from healthy but I dont have long until Im 18, and they say that if I have no signs of your stuff by then, Ill be fine. Do you really watch over me or is that just something people would like to believe? I would like to believe that we are more than flesh and bones and simply go somewhere else after death, but that is so hard to believe sometimes. But I pray every day that it is the truth, and I pray that someday I will meet up with you again in where ever this 'somewhere else' may be.
Loving you always,
Brandon

Dear Lauren,
I only wish you knew that you are the only thing that keeps me sane from day to day, and at times the only reason I don't want to die. When I feel sick to my stomach, I go to school just so I can be with you for that 10-15 minutes that I drive you home. As summer nears, Im not exactly sure what will become of us. I hope that by then I will be able to tell you how I feel about you. I'm not sure why I feel as though I cant when every sign and arrow indicates that you feel similarly towards me. I guess I am just like that. I make everything sound so easy until I have to do it and then I freeze. I count the minutes until I next see you Monday.
Loving you more than you will ever know,
Brandon

Dear Cody,

You are a cocky bastard & I don't feel bad that I played you. I messed with your mind & I loved every single f**king second of it. I had some f**king awesome times playing you, sadly. Oh, how I'll miss playing mind games with you now. This breakup was messy & I dont regret breaking up with you at all. I never even had true feelings for you. Yeah? Your good-looking so what? 5290582096268820 guys out there are better looking then you. Stop being so cocky then maybe you might actually get a girl that doesn't play mind games with you. You can go back to your ex-slut & tell her you love her but you know that she will never be better then me. You know that for a fact. Does playing you make a major bitch? Then so be it.

- Liz.

Dear Eric,

Loved you, played you, over you. Deal with it.

- Liz.

Donell;

It's over with this lingering infatuation we've got! I'm tired of basing my happiness around your presence. No more forgiving hearts- no more caring. I write this to you in hopes that you may one day realize the pain and stress you have brought to my existence. Call it selfish, narcissistic, even egotistical. But I need to do what is right for me. I can't just wait for you until you're ready, I'm growing up. I'm changing quick, and I'm tired of holding someone who holds me 6 feet below earth on a 6 foot high pedestal. I now know that your attention and warm embraces are not the only things that can make me smile. Your empty words now fall upon deaf ears. Forgotten promises are what they are- forgotten. False declarations of feelings for me are now exposed. You can no longer get away with what you're used to. I WON'T allow it. You don't deserve me. I'm that beautiful wild orchid that grows in your backyard, almost choked by the weeds... But, I flourish and when I do- you'll finally notice this forgotten flower. You'll wish you catered to me more. You will want me. You will need me. And for the first time, I won't need you. Don't worry about me- I'll be fine. Question is, will you?

-Tiffany.

Ps - I know about her.
Pps - Don't bother replying.

Tom,
I want this all to stop. The fighting, the flirting, the bullshit. You need to just be a normal human being. Don't act like a tool, okay. You don't need to flirt with her and call me a bitch and talk about me to her either. What you need to do is just stop this. Stop hiding your damn feelings to act like you are over me. Please, if you were, why the f**k would you try to make me jealous all the time and then get upset when I won't tell you things and what not? We aren't together anymore remember? You aren't, well you can't be, number one. As much as I'd like to have you be, I would never let you back in. You can't have my heart again, it has been so broken up by you too many times. You just don't know when to stop. I hope that you realize you lost possibly the best thing to ever happen to you.

Dear Stefanie,

All you been doing lately is break me down & watch me cry. You were my best friend. Best friend. All those f**king years were a waste of time? Fake smiles & fake memories? I been with you through every f**king thing. The first dates, the breakups, the tears, the smiles & all the f**king problems you ever had. f**k. All those years were a waste of time. I can't believe it, f**k the memories. I am gonna forget & find myself someone else to replace you. Not some fake, slutty whore like you.

- Liz.

Dear Love,

I really f**king hate you right now.

Taylor``

Dear Person.

I love hate the way you assume things.
I love you. But I don't love you like that anymore.
My weaknesses frustrate me..
But I have them.
This is ridiculous.
I shouldn't be writing this letter.
I should be telling you off.
You keep trying to take the easy road out.
I'm SORRY you're still attracted to me.
How have you the right to feel hurt that I don't long for you?

- Lindsey

Dear best friend,

All my life I felt there was no point in the real world. I never wanted to live in it, and I didn't like how "things" were. But when I met you, everything was fun again. I had something to look forward to everyday and my confidence just... went up! I was so happy I found someone who could be there for me and never go against me.

After I read your diary without even telling you, I felt so horrible. You felt so many things you couldn't tell me. Please don't feel so alone. I love you to death and I want to guide you through these things. Maybe things get more difficult as days go by but you'll live through it if you believe in yourself! I'm here for you through the good and bad times.

After all, the only thing I want in the world is for you to be happy =)

-----------------

Dear parents,

I'll pass this year just for you =)

Dear Adrian...

I'm sorry I'm like this. I am, but I can't help it - it's who I am. I can't help but be paranoid... I know you care deep down, but I need to SEE it and FEEL it more from you...theres times when it seems like you don't care at all...take today for instance. I miss how we were before...because I still feel the exact same way...some days you seem to, but some days you don't. I love spending any time with you that I get and just being with you is wonderful...you are never as excited anymore it seems...I don't know. I just want you to show me that you really care...even though I'm just supposed to know. I'm an idiot like that okay? Please luf and love me still...I worry so much about you and all...but sometimes, when I'm upset, you don't even seem to notice. How will I ever tell you all this? I need you to know, but I'm so frightened of what you'll think...I want to be strong and have faith...and I do. I trust you with my life, with everything...yet I feel so vulnerable to you. The tiniest things you do affect me. Its amazing really. Please...don't let me cry like this anymore.

Dear Piece of sh*t,
Watch my temper? Watch YOUR f**king temper. Leave me the f**k alone. You're such a f**king bastard. You don't even deserve to still fcking live here. Go out and party with your friends. Go drink and f**king get drunk. Go smoke and have fun with all those high school asian whores you hang out with. I really don't give a sh*t, and neither does anybody else anymore. I DON'T CARE. Just go away and never come back again. I love how you think I have a bad temper and I do bad things. HAHAHAHA. THAT'S A f**king JOKE. Look at all the sh*t you've done. I have done nothing. You have done EVERYTHING to upset this family. HAHAHA. I hate you. So f**king much.

Alex,

God, I am so pissed & disappointed at you. Yeah, maybe you didn't mean to lead me on. I just lead myself on to thinking you meant it. But what you said, you shouldn't of said, anyways it's bullshit now. It doesn't mean f**k at all. Now everything is gonna be f**ked up & odd when I talk to you now, God. Why did you have to go & say all that shit that you didn't even feel? Yeah, you f**ked it up bad.

- Liz.

Lenaya,

You are one f**king fake bitch. I am so glad that we are on non-speaking terms right now. I could care less that you don't like me. Honestly I never really like you much anyways. I hope you die. Hmkay?

- Liz.

Dear Stephen,
Hey. I feel silly doing this because first, you're not going to read it, and second, ofcourse not, you can't read. :]
But I want to know these 2 years that you have been in this world has been the best years ever. Even though mommy and daddy are going through a lot and they're not getting along at all, they love you a lot (So do I.), and nothing that happens between them is ever your fault. I miss you a lot, I miss I can see you again. You're barely two-years-old, but you already understand the situation between mommy and daddy, and that really hurts mommy. I understand you try and get us back together again, but we always turn you down. And I'm sorry. And don't get me wrong, I'm suffering, too. So you're not alone, babyboy. I love you, and miss you, baby brother. :]
Smile for me, mk?

Love,
Eva.

Dear a bitch,
i think that you dont know how to go away.you shit bitch exists here juts wanna to annoy us.tell some bad things to some one.(what a f**king bitch it is) can you stop this??because of you,made us sad,confused.we couldnt imagine that you DID it.Go away before we wanna to kill you.

Dear Alex,

It's been 10 months, 10 f**king months of tears & smiles. Where the f**k did it go wrong? It was perfect, darling perfect. Yeah, maybe it was my fault. But I am telling you right now 'I love you'. Why can't you just say it back to me like you did before. -sigh- I miss you so much.

- Liz.

Dear Brandon,

You envoke in me so much, I never knew could be felt.
You are mine. Never forget it.

Love,
Linds

Dear Aaron,

Hi, so how's your summer been? My summer has been crap. Kinda. I have no idea how I really feel about you. I liked you a lot, I know that for sure. But loved you? I don't know, I doubt it though. It wasn't love. I wish it was, but it wasn't love. A few months ago, if you wanted to get back with me again, I wouldn't hesitate one second, I would've rushed back into your arms. But now I know, if I have done that, I would've been in your arms, but not your heart. I've got you figured out now. You're the kind that gets bored of a girl easily, and you love new stuff. And I'm getting old, aren't I? But it's okay. So's the game you're playing.

Sincerely,
Eva.

Dear stupid people I will meet in the future,

Go die now and save me the trouble. -.-;;

Love, Esther. <3

dear new lover boy,

i think you're cute. quit drinking and smoking so much.

sincerely, sandy

Dear John,

Stop sucking Angie's payness.
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Delivery man,
PLEASE SEND MY NEW COMPUTER SOOONNNN.

efrfrsfgfvfs.

How the hell did this topic get back up?

*erases old posts* Anyhow, for the letters:

Dear kenny,

Why? You gave Brandi a chance, but not me. And even though you wo broke up month ago, it's obvious you're still in love. Just ask her out and get it over with already. I'm tired of you two talking about how muich you love eachother, even though you aren't even going out.

- Cassie

Dear Alyssa,

Thanks for caring. You're the best friend ever. I could be talking about one thing, but you knew what I was thinking. I love you. Seriously. The whole Aaron thing. I'm sorry. I'm stupid. I can't get over him. I thought I did. Until today. The whole Lauren thing is too much. I can't believe this, but I'm jealous. Jealous of him and Lauren. He lied to me, Alyssa. He told everyone, including me, that he loves me. Not loved, but loves. But once I leave town, I'm thrown away, and all of a sudden, he's with Lauren. Is that supposed to make sense? I wish I never read the whole thing with him and Lauren. I'm so stupid for falling for him in the first place. And I hate him for making me fall for him. But unfortunately, I can't hate him.

Love, Eva.

Dear Boy with 4-lettered name,

You made me happy for a while. Everything you did gave me a reason. But I can't handle talking to you when every word you say hurts. I just can't!

Dear Guy Friend,

i'm still worried about you. i'm afraid that you really will hurt yourself. and your girlfriend, (my best friend) isn't helping at all. she said that you call her when you're depressed, and she said it like she was annoyed. well, know that i'm here. if you need to talk, im here.

Dear Other Guy Friend,

don't leave california after you graduate! i'd miss you so much!

Dear Boyfriend,

i dont know why i said it. i'm sorry. i still love you.

dear tom of myspace,

you deleted my old profile. or at least one of your computer army nerds did.

rawr.

- cassie

hello bitchy face girl,
haha, i can't believe you did that to her! and i heard from ____ that you even made out with him on the first day together! wowww, i can't even believe you were my best friend, because that's the lowest thing someone could do. you were going out with him even thought you knew ___ was still going out with him. yu slut. i feel like the drama goes up during the summer.

hello noraj,
i love you, :D


XO,
monica

Dear You,
Right, so you don't know this, but a lot of the things we talked about last night over the phone got me in a bad mood. It got me thinking, and now I feel like I'm just sitting here thinking to myself, "..okay, what now? What the fcuk can I do?" You really give me no option. I think I'm even more upset because I don't think I should even be feeling this way. God, who says that? You talk about how others do this and that and how it's all wrong; I'm sitting here thinking, take a look at yourself. Re-evaluate your priorities and think before you talk. 'Cause some of the things you said last night just really hurt me and I'm feeling pretty crummy right now. Why, oh why, oh why? It's bugging the hell out of me. I shouldn't be feeling this.

I really shouldn't.

Sarah Joy

Parents,
how can you do this to me? i can understand why you grounded me the first time, even though it wasn't really my fault. 1 week off the computer and phone wouldn't be hard if my boyfriend wasn't in north carolina right now. yeah, i did sneak onto the phone twice, but can you blame me? i'm not allowed out at all...it's like im being held prisoner in my own damn house! sitting at home all day leaves me to do one thing---think. and when i think, all i want to do is talk to corey beacuse he makes everything better. i'm sorry that i snuck onto the phone behind your back, i really am. and im thankful that you lessened my punishment to 2 weeks instead of a month. but how am i going to sit in the house for another 1 1/2 weeks?!?! i want to see corey so f**king back when he gets home. this is unbearable. please, if you have a heart, let me see him when he comes home on friday. if you don't, i have no idea what i'm going to do. i miss him so much. i hate sitting here all day wishing that i did things differently, and never got caught. but how can you take away my life for 2 whole weeks? it's SUMMER. i want to be with my friends and my boyfriend. i dont care if you ground me off the phone and computer for hte rest of the year, as long as i get to see corey. well i guess ill talk to you two later or tomorrow about letting me see him. i don't want to push my luck though.

Baby,
i miss you so f**king much. all i want is for you to come home. but who knows if ill even be able to see you when you do!? that's what sucks...i don't know whether or not my parents will give in by friday. im hoping that after a few days of me showing that they can trust me they'll let me see you. i love you so much hun and while you're in north carolina it feels like half of me is missing. i sleep in your shirt every single night and it makes it feel like you're closer to home. i really hope that everything works out in our favor. i've been having such bad luck lately since thursday so something good HAS to happen in the near future. well, ill see you...soon. i hope. i love you more than anything and enjoy the last few days you have left at your grandparents' house.

boy,

i hope you didn't think i was weird today. i hope you didn't think i didn't look like myself. i hope you didn't think it was awkward. i hope i will see you again and it won't be like this time..

Damnit Austin..I wish you were more complex sometimes and I wish you would elaborate. How can your mind change in a span of two days? When two days before that, we were cuddling on your bed? Your excuse is that I'm obsessed...but you never minded that. EVER. And all of a sudden you do. All of a sudden, you don't love me anymore. All of a sudden, all that's left is a stupid crush. Is it your dad? Did he finally convince you to leave me? All those excuses, they all add up to that. And now that you're in camp, are you with someone else? Did you forget about me? You need to understand that I need closure. In order to get over you, I need to know the whole thing. But I guess it's too late now..after I told you that I don't like you anymore. I really hope you're willing to be friends after this.

Dear Waseem,
Why do I keep thinking about you? I keep seeing your face in my mind; I keep listening to the same songs over and over again that remind me of you. I thought I was over you, but I guess you never forget your first love.

Dear Will,

I miss you. :[ Come back.

Love,
Eva.

Baby,
I MISS YOU SO MUCH! it was hard enough not beign able to talk or see you while you were in north carolina...but now that you're home and i can't it makes it even worse! i can't wait until tuesday when my punishment is over...i want to hug you and kiss you forever. i can't wait..im counting down the days. i love you baby.

Dear Tom,
myspace is wackk. it`s not frickin working again.
damn you. get us all adicted to it.
and it seems like every other day it`s messed up.
grrr you. GRRRR.

Dear Person,
my goodness. i can`t wait to see "John Tucker Must Die".
*sigh* only seven more days to go.

Dear "Five head"
i hate you. After everything we`ve been through, you go & do this? what the hell? i was there for you through everything. even when everyone hated you. don`t bother trying to fix this. it`s over. your so history. go play in traffic. i could care less about you.

Dear Cakeface,
You could do way better than him. im serious. you DESERVE better.

Dear Jotai,
im sorry, i really don`t like you like that.

Dear Arizona,
My goshh. i miss you so much. i never got over you. I`m so happy your back i just wish i could see you. it seems like myspace is the only way i could ever talk to you. thank you for adding me again. i`m scared to comment you. i mean, what would i say? "thanks for the add!" is so cliche. so maybe you could comment me first? you could use your old line "ALA00f bAbY!". please, just anything. i miss you more than you could possibly know. Is your girlfriend mad at me? She deleted me, and im thinking she knows about what we did? right now i don`t care, but just please get in touch with me. i need you.

Dear Stranger,
i just met you, but i think i have feelings for you. Bleh, maybe it`s just my hormones acting up again. i do admit your pretty damn attractive maybe we could get to know each other? bleh, but i know you like -- er LOVE -- Lani. *sigh*

Dear Bee,
i hate you. your fake. your ugly. you jack everything i say & do. and you have the nerve to call yourself unique? hell no. i hope you choke & die. seriously.

Baby,
I'M UNGROUNDED! ..finally. yayyay i can't wait to see you today. i miss you so much it's unbelievable. i have butterflies in my stomach because im so excited. i love youuu.

Dear ---,

Congratulations, bitch. I hate you even more now. See if you'll see my face at your funeral. If I do happen to show up, it's because so I can laugh in your face, and vent out everything you have done to dad and me. You think you have the power to just break up our family like that? You and that homewrecking stepdad I have are screwballs. You're so stupid, he doesn't even love you. Have you ever had the time to notice that we have moved at least 8 times in one year? Yeahh, we have. I'm tired of it. I hate having to move from one school to another, and move back again. Everybody from school thinks my family have problems. You come to me with your man problems, but guess what? I DON'T GIVE A FLYING f**k. HA! I enjoy watching you cry, I enjoy watching you suffer the way daddy did. And dad's just as stupid.. FOR STILL LOVING YOU, SKANK! How could my dad have EVER fall in love with you?

Anyway, I guess the point of this is to tell you: Don't expect my face at your funeral.

Dear You,
Thanks for last night. Your phonecall made me feel a lot better. Also, about you wanting to move somewhere and start new; namely moving to your dad's and getting a second chance at a new beginning, to avoid the drama and bullsh*t.. It goes without saying that I'd miss you, but even so, I want you to be happy. And though you say you wouldn't be able to move away because of the people you'd leave behind, like me and your cousin, I know you think about it sometimes. I can't blame you, there's a lot going on right now and it's a lot for one person to take on. You know I'm here for you and that I'll carry half the weight just to help you. I'm torn between you leaving and you being ultimately happy. But like I said, it's comes down to your descision, and you've got a good head on your shoulders babe, and so I know you'll make the right descision for you.

ilu.

Sarah Joy

Dear you,

I love walking home with you, I love your expressions when you play your instrument, I love your laugh, I love sitting next to you in almost every class, I love the presence of you.
But you don't know.

Dear _;
What the f**k. I have changed? Are you f**king kidding me. Been a jackass much? God, don't get me f**king started on how much of a dick you been. I can't f**king stand you, you expect me to kiss your ass after you treated me like shit. Hell no. I'm not gonna be a ass kisser for no one.

Dear person,
I'd really appreciate it if you'd stop misleading me. You ignore me. You sock. Seriously. I don't think I like you anymore. You never talk to me. Not even in class. I'm not supposed to be the outgoing person all the time. I'm not supposed to start things. I don't have to be the person to take all your crap. I give up on you. Forreally. I quit. I'm not gonna put up with all your sh*t. You're just playing games with me. You didn't know how I felt. You're the main reason why I was depressed on Sunday. Your words sting. You have to watch what you're saying, seriously. I don't want you to ever call me again. I'll even delete your number off my phone. That's just how much I hate you right now.

Well, it's not really hate. I just don't like you. You have hurt me so much and you probably don't even realize it. You probably don't even realize how much your words hurt the people around you. If you do/did like me, you should have told me earlier.. Right now, I think you're an ass. Maybe just don't talk to me for a couple of months and when I'm ready, I'll start talking to you again. 'Kays?

-Elaine.

Dear Phillip,
What the hell is going on? And why Katie? I never said no. You need to STFU and get over it. I heart you.

Dear Katie,
WTF? I told you I liked him! Ugh. You're a great friend. And yes I do want him.

Dear whoever you are
From near or from far,

Im hoping you happy that I'm writing a letter//
And if ever you feel down, I can try my best to make it better//
But sometimes your best isn't good enough//
And if a nigga ain't gangsta, he isn't hood enough//
Maybe if I step up my goals for higher aspects//
Then In return, I can receive flyer prospects//
So as im coastin through as I think//
I might have to reposition myself, because I'm unreal with the ink//
They wanted me to react with facts so I spit'em//
Got it locked from front to back, the flow is like venom//
Whats in him, what is he made of//
Quite possibly somebody has to show your man love//
So when it rains . it always pours loosely

This has been signed by yours truly,

KC

Dear God,


I don't believe in you.


Sincerely, Jenn

Dear you,

Fcuk you much?
You're a jerk. But I still can't help but like you.




I'm glad this topic's up again.

Dear Me,

I miss you. Whoever that is. Sometimes I wake up, and I just really miss you. I miss the undyed shiny hair, and the burnt croissant colour of your skin, and how you never smelled of chlorine. I miss the innocence you had, and the oblivion of sex and drugs. Remember being happy with learning guitar songs and singing along with Van? Now you go out late at night causing trouble with yourself. You're wasting your life. Get it together.

Unlovingly, Jenn.

Dear boy,

Stop making me feel so fucking human. ...

Me.

Dear Adrian,

I'm worried. I'm so happy right now and completely over it...but its not like I don't care about you anymore. I know that in the next few weeks I'll probably officially be in a new relationship. I'm scared how you'll take it. I can only hope you won't hate me or something...I don't know. I hope you're doing alright right now...I guess we'll see, cause I think you're gonna be there tonight so yeah.

Dear ---,
How many times can I say sorry? A person can't help their feelings. You've made me feel like such a bitch. If you keep pressing it on, you're going to make it worse for the both of us...
-Me.