It's summer for me, and lately, all I've been doing is pushing people away. Everybody close to me, I just want them out of my life right now, and I have no idea why. Everyday I sit around the house, just bored, and everytime somebody invites me to go somewhere, I pretend I'm busy or something. I constantly TRY to argue with my friend, so they can leave me alone. Yesterday, I sat up, crying for no reason. At first I thought it was just stress, and then I was like, "what kind of stress would you have over the summer?" I talked to one of my close friends (who I havent fought with YET), telling her how there is something bothering me these days, but the thing is, i DONT know what is bothering me, I just know something is.
Yesterday, I got in a fight with one of my CLOSET friends ever, the one true friend I had hung out since I was 4, and had never gotten into a fight with until now, over something very stupid. I called him and tried to say sorry, but he didn't accept it, and told me what I said came out from SOMEWHERE. Today, I was talking to my other close friend, and the conversation was fine, until she brought up a topic about how she thinks her friends are keeping somebody from her, and something just spilled out of my mouth. When I replayed what I said to her, I realized what I said was immature and rude. She ended up a little upset, saying, "I always listened to you when you had something to say, I thought you would do the same with me." I apologized, and said, "I'm sorry, I was being a hyprocrite. Let's start this conversation over." She refused, and ended up leaving a away message that said, "today is blehh..". Earlier, I was in a bad mood, and got into ANOTHER fight with my friend. She was bothering me, demanding I answered one of her question, and I said something extremely mean to her. I didn't intend to say what I said, but the fact is that I said something to her that I truly regret. She ended up hanging up one me, and told me she didn't know who I was these days, and I was changing in a bad way. I tried calling her back, but she never picked up her cellphone.

My other friend who I told the situtation told me that it could be because I thought I couldn't do anything right, or I needed some time away from others to relax myself, and calm myself. She said it could also be because of my crush, because the last time I talked to him, we ended the conversation really pissed, and she said lately I could have been just stressing over that. I still don't know why I've been in a bad mood lately, and I've tried to consider everything my friend said, what do you think it is (might be hard for you to answer that, so you can ignore it if you want to). But, even IF those are the reasons, what I did was wrong to my friends, and whatever I do now will not fix what I had done. They won't even talk to me, so I can't explain anything, and I have a feeling they will most likely just end up saying, "that's no reason to dump all your mess on us." So, I have two questions, has something like this ever occured to you, like, you were in a bad mood, but you never knew why, and, how should I try to fix this problem?

stuff like this happens with my gf all the time... she starts geting really angery and starts pushing every1 away and blameing everything on every1... what we do is well its kinda stupid but she looks at pictures that make her happy.. so just do something that will .. like cheer u up... or something idk..

That has happen to me, it was over a bad breakup. I mean all i did was be locked up in my room & be on the computer. I always wanted to be alone, & have everyone just leave me alone. Well maybe your friends right[about the guy]..maybe you should talk to him ? - Get stuff straight with him & see if thats whats making you, act like that. But lots of girls go through this...but its the summer, try going out have some fun. But i hope you feel better :)

Happens to me sometime..like I just get all mad when they ask me something or talk to me on AIM when I`m away..I just try to tell them straight up that I don`t want to talk to some people now..and they leave me alone..then the next day..I`m sort of back to normal because I`d just spent a whole day to myself without someone bugging me.

It's common among teenagers. I get like that sometimes too. Ah, hormones.

Taylor``

That happened to me a lot in the past year. I'd randomly get mad at people or just want to be alone. Basically same thing as you. I found out I was just getting pissed off at my parents tring to get into my peronal space, maybe it's the same thing for you? People are trying to get more into your life and you're pushing them away because you feel they are crowding you and you're uncomfortable with it so your only responce is to push them away just so you can get a breath of air and be alone. That might not be it, but who knows. That's what the problem was for me. I'd also advise that you attempt to calm down and just set your priorities. Just space out time with friends time with family and let everyone know that you are in a phase where alone time is essential and set time for that too. Maybe spend some of your day talking/haning out with friends and then some of it alone reading a book or something. Just distract yourself enough so that you don't blow up at people and ruin your relationships with them. Hope I helped... it not... sorry =(

i went through that a few months ago, all i really did was talk about it with my mom and she just listened. everything that i was feeling spilled out and i felt better afterwards. maybe you could pick up running or something to get all the frustration out instead of taking it out on other people (even though its not intentional)

i think we all go through it. i say just tell your friends your sorry and that you want some time alone right now to vent out whatever it is thats bugging you and you have to find it on your own. aplogize to your friends and if they dont understand, then they just don't. right now don't really talk to anyone before you end up hurting them again and they might not be in speaking terms with you. just let them know your okay and that you just need some time to sort things out since its summer you have time.

sorry hope that was good enuff for you...i myself feel like i don't hang outside as much with friends. i believe i could have so many more friends if i would just get out there. but due to my parents holding me back and a "image" i have to portray for them on being the perfect daughter i can't do anything... ugh/. heh heh hope it all works out