I really know how to say this but it hurts not to.

My parents are divorce, and often get stressed out and hit me till I bleed.
I cut myself because it's my only relief. I just went through a bad breakup, and just runaway from home. And now I have 'run-away' on my records. So many are mad at me...

I can't take this anymore...and it really hurts for me not doing anything about it.

I need help - now

why the emo action??

i dunno tons of stuff goes through my house too.

Maybe you should talk to your school counslor, just to get all of this out of your system. Keeping this locked up so only you know what's going on is only making it worse.

^i agree with My Cinderella. you should talk to a counselor. it'll help alot

If your parents are hitting you than they NEED help. You should not be living with them. Contact a child abuse or domestic violence hotline. I am sure they could help you alot more. Can you move in with your grandmother or someone you know that won't hurt you and you can trust ?

Tell someone.If I was you..I wouldl live with someone else..like a aunt or something.

SHES A CUTTER OMFG ADMIN BAN PLZ

^ Wtf. Forreal, shut up.

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I think you should talk to a counselor or something tell them what's going with you parents. As much as you might love your parents, you arne't safe with them & I would ty to go live with another trusted family member.

jeez what she said as well to magicfann


Anyway you need to talk to someone, go to a counselor. Talk to someone that has some kind of good insights. Your parents are completely in the wrong as well. They should never come about hitting you. My mom use to do that, and then my parents split up and got back together and now their going through it again. 0_o. You need to go find someone else to live with as well. Perhaps someone that is family and if your not safe there then someone that has always said your more than welcome to always come here no matter what type person.

But one girl did say that your parents need help, which is true. No doubt about it, they need to go learn that arguments can be calmly figured out through words and not physical abuse. Your not in the wrong at all, except for the cutting part, because you need to get over all this pain and talk to someone as well. Get your life back happy and stuff. Breakups are breakups as well. Their going to hurt and you have to get over them and move on. You'll always have that special place in your heart for them if you really loved him but you still have to move on because not all relationships last because they were perhaps learning ones.

this should probably be in the other topic as well that you made.

Hello -

I merged your two topics so that any advice/comments people have might be easier to follow.

PS -

Have you considered writing something and perhaps posting it in the writing forum? We have many wonderful creative writers here and it really is a good outlet.

Talk to your friends to help.

Dont cut your self.. thats just gay.

Two words: professional help.

Taylor``

The relationship problem- Its only a matter of time untill you get over it. Just be patient.. Don`t do anything you`ll regret later on. Try thinking about the positives..

The parents- You don`t need to put up with that. You need to tell someone ASAP before things get worse. Hope everything is gonna go better for you.

no offense
but that is rather rude.
You should give her more indepth advice into why you think she should get perfessional help. And how to help her other wise.

Break up with your boyfriend, vent your pain by talking to someone. Doing anything to help your problem is better than cutting any day

I know how you feel right now, I hate myself for being incapable of doing so many things like being the smartest kid in school or impressing my mom, but ya know friends help, they help a lot. If you have a good friend who can listen and advise you, you're going to turn out great. Don't give in to anything, k?

stop it

break up with him.
get help from another relative
or talk to a counselor.
This is so sad

I thought this was a poem for a minute lmfao

I don't see how that's exactly rude. She really DOES need professional help. She sounds like she's .. really .. depressed .

& WHYYYYY must you ALWAYS tell people what to write in their posts. Leave them alone.

Are you f**king kidding me? Did you not read her post? Okay, how do you think YOU will help her? What do you suggest, professor Smartass? Get real.

Taylor``

I used to cut
and I know how you feel
my friends helped me through it
but not everyone has the kinds of friends that i do
and i don't know how to help you
other than to say that you aren't the only one who feels like that
and i am really really really sorry that you are in so much pain
its horrible, i know
its so overwhelming
and everyone says 'seek professional help'
and thats so annoying
because the last thing i wanted to do was go to a shrink
after all adults are one of the reasons i was like that in the first place
if you have any close friends i would talk to them about it
and try writing
i wrote songs and they helped me move on when my a relationship i was in went really wrong
or painting
even if your not a good artist, i think painting helps relieve stress
most of all stay strong
i wish i could hug you and make all your
pain go away

It's kind of annoying
when you type like this.
Honestly.

But self-expression does help.

Taylor``

i'm
sorry you
don't
like
the way
i
type

It
's
not
only
me
.

Taylor``

0_O
i don't tell people what to write in all their posts. If I did I would hope I would have more posts then what I do now.
But just telling someone they need help by a shrink could come off really rude to some people.

Yeah well you kind of did.



What if she doesn't want to? God, let her post whatever. You always seem to be doing that. I don't know maybe I'm just tripping cus you bug me.

You remind me of the old lady I fought at the smoothie shop yesterday. That woman had isssssues.

Woman, don't tell me how to behave or what to post. Because many people have tried, and I can tell you - you won't succeed.

Taylor``

the topic starter hasn't even come back to say anything.




she could be dead by now.
(that was rude)




i'll be the judge of who is rude now so SHHHHUSH your face miss confession.

^ Not rude, dear, honest. But some people have a hard time with the distinction..

Taylor``

I dont think you all arguing isnt helping this girl you know.So just stop.Any way as for the girl i say go get help,restrain your self from cutting.Love comes and goes and i see if you were in deep love.But dont hurt your self over it...

Yeah true.
I'm thinking it would sound rude when the topic starter reads it though.

^Yeah,if they wanna argue do it somewhere else,she did ask for help not for a bunch of idiots to argue over typo.Also if she talks to her counselor about that,they will have to call child services.

A bunch of idiots arguing about a typo? First of all, think twice before calling us idiots, and second, we're not arguing over a typo :)

Taylor``

You know what I find annoying....
People that type their name at the end of every post they post..

i lol because you're right

i feel like ... you took someone's lyric or something o__O

haha yesss.

but i really hope the topic starter is okay
and that her parents didn't beat her to death or something
like in the song concrete angels by martina mcbride.. that was a sad song

there will always be a time when you go through a relationship that you treasured so much, but it ends up being broken. in order to free yourself from thoughts of your exboyfriend, you should preoccupy yourself with things that you haven't done before, or things that you've always admired. per say, take walks at a nice park, maybe it would cool you down. or perhaps you should do things with your little cousins, volunteer to help at an organization. helping others may give you the chance to help yourself.

you could also indulge yourself into a bucket of ice cream [: there are so many other ways to solve your problems rather than cutting yourself. if your parents are causing you pain, talk to somebody. it may seem like nobody is there, but look at all the replies you got to this topic! all most of them telling you to talk to your counselor. counselors don't always have to be from your school, a counselor could be anybody from your favorite teacher, your friends, to your grandma or older cousin.

i agree with everybody else when they say that you should call an abuse hotline to get some help, it'll be hard for now, but if you think you have a little hope, pursue that thought, and make it your aspiration to complete it.

it sounds like you also have a lot of potential, you could write a novel about your life in poem form, and that could also relieve your stress.

i hope you find whatever i say helpful, and i hope that you follow others advice when they tell you to seek help in a positive environment. everyone out here wants you to succeed in life as well, you do have a purpose; you just need help seeing it.

People agree!

i'm here but the internet over here is slow.

from a scale of 1 - 10 of hitting likes like a 8 or a 9.
and yes i'm alright i hope no one thought i died or something about now - a little late i'm sorry.

i've gotten over him on the boyfriend part. and in my spare time i write poetry, i even won some awards for them and this just happen to be one of them.

i have gotten professional help, but in the end my parents find a way through it and avoids it. my family doesn't talk to me because of the professional help part. gossip went through the family, so no one is talking to me.
i did have friends that offer for me to live with them. but the police got on the case, and i can't. unless they go through court. the beating still happens till this day.
and professional help has worked once from like the millionth time i've tried.
the police says if this happens again with the whole cutting thing i'll be placed in a mental hopistal. and really do not like the thought of it.

i'm only 14, and things are hard here at home, and school. i also happen to move around alot because of the abuse. the cops and people find out. and my parents move me to avoid it. i'm soon going to enter high school in three weeks and i need to find a place to stay.

if i try to contact anyone for any professional help i will be placed in juvenile hall - i've tried so many times already that everyones have had enough...theres really nothing for me to do till i'm 18. and thats another 4 years....its to long for me to wait...and i get scared when i know what my parents are able to do.

Oh my god. Man that is horrible. I think I will open up a shelter to help kids who get beat up from living in broken homes. You should call loveline then. I've heard of situations like yours where they re-direct you afterwards to give you help. You can always take a shot at doing that.

loveline? i've never heard about that before is there a number?

but i'm afraid of what happens if i do. i really dont want to junvile or that 'hopsital'

To call loveline it's : 800-love-191
It's hosted by Dr.Drew, you just call and tell them everything and ask what you should
do basically. I'm sure they could get you help without having any consequences.



They also have alot of numbers you can call on their site :



American Suicide Survival Line (National, 24/7)(888) SUICIDE
(1-888-784-2433)

National Runaway Switchboard (800) 621-4000

National "Youth" Crisis Line (800) 999-9999

Friends for Survival, Inc. (support for survivors of suicide) (916) 392-0664

National Mental Health Association (800) 969-NMHA (6642)

Alcohol Abuse (800) 356-9996

Alcoholics Anonymous World Services (212) 870-3400

National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism (301) 443-3860

Domestic Violence Hotline (800) 799-SAFE (7233)

NY Hotline (800) 621-HOPE (4673)

Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, and Transgender Youth support (800) 850-8078

Gay and Lesbian Youth Talkline (800) 773-5540

National AIDS Hotline (800) 342-AIDS (2437)

HIV/AIDS Treatment Information Service (800) 448-0440

National Sexually Transmitted Disease Hotline (800) 227-8922

American Social Health Association (800) 227-8922

National Herpes Hotline (919) 361-8488

Herpes Resource Center (800) 230 6039

American Social Health Association (chlamydial infection) (800) 230-6039

National Women's Health Information Center (800) 994-WOMAN (9662)

National Planned Parenthood (800) 230-PLAN

Child Help USA (800) 422-4453

STD Hotline (sexually transmitted diseases)(800) 230-PLAN

R.A.I.N.N. (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network)(800) 656-4673

Morning After Pill Info(888) 668 2528

Family Planning (800) 942-1054

Child Abuse Hotline (800) 540-4000

thank you for the numbers i'll try to call later when my 'parent' aren't home.

the police - i've talked to them like a million times already, i even got taken out of school because of it. its like everyone knows.

i really don't know what to do. i just wish it would stop.
and no the only family members that are talking to me are my aunt.
she doesnt't like how my 'parents' are treating me...and is against it is what she told me. i'm on staying with her for the summer because of this.


i also have a younger brother. but he doesn't get this abuse though what is the odd thing in my opioion. he doesnt get hit or anything of what i'm getting. and that tic my off by a long shoot.

he's right and they did - i can still remember that day. i was called out during like my first period class and then i was in there till like after school. they contacted my aunt and then my parents and etc. my brother has a cell phone because my parents gave it to him. he didnt understand why we were called in. and when the lady from child service asked for contacts of the family he gave her like all the numbers. it got me soo tic off. later that night my parents came home and were like beating me up and everything.

my parents are never home you see, they work like three hours away. they leave me and my younger brother at home by ourselves till like 5pm when my aunt comes and picks us up to go to her house. then like two hours before school starts she drops us off every morning to go to school at our house.

after school my ex, and his cousin which is like my best friend were waiting and i told them what happen. my best friend was the one who told the con. what happen and stuff. i told them about it and that i might be placed in a foster home and move. which was going to happen like a week ago, but didn't.

then around two weeks ago at my eight grade graduation he broke up with me. he said that i was going to move, and he couldn't handle that. he told me he loved me and stuff but it wouldnt work.

he knew about everything that happen at home because he heard my parents beating me on the phone. he told me that he'll always be there for me. but then no - he left me for it...

but i gotten over him - he was my first for like boyfriend, kiss, hug, and i love you. no ones ever done that. thats why i'm so depress - it all happened when i needed him the most. but i have to move on...and it gets me sick.

Its good to hear that you are fine and your trying to get help!

<3 I will keep you in my prayers.

^--- That shes not dead, as in thats how fine she is. O_o