I love you no matter what I say. Who I go out with. Cuz ur the most real person to me. I admire u so much. And Everything i've done has been to get at u. And I'm so blessed cuz after everything left. U came back.

So I love you.

You are mi mejor amigo forever & sssssoooo many more

: When I read that, it cheered me up. We're doing better, but thanks for that.
: Hey you. Sorry about all that. I can't help it. I'm glad we're okay again.
: Feel better! You're gettin' there hon!

... I want you to listen to Track 9 for the mixtape I gave you over and over and over again.

__HA! today officially sucked. today was suppose to be a good moment, well, kinda. BUT it sucked totally. cause i felt like shit. you guys made me feel like shit. im usually the one with no friendship problems, (being leftout, separation, etc) but i guess it finally came? i had the same feeling a while back, but when i mentioned it you guys just ignored it, & carried on with your OWN problems. i give my all when any of you are down, or somethings wrong, cause seeing my bestest friends hurt is the worst pain ever felt. & you cant do the same for me. dont get it wrong, i love you guys, your the BEST! i may sound like the bitchest bitch right, but its only cause im f**king pissed of right now. but sometimes, i feel like you guys dont even give a shit. if i dissapeared the next day would you guys carry on like its JUST any other day? ill let YOU guys answer that. & im not trying to complain either.

__i guess you can say i never felt like this before. i know anyone could say this about their relationship. but this time i promise, i mean it. its just a few weeks into our relationship, & i feel so attached too you. i think about you everyday, & i constantly miss you. usually, i get sick of a boyfriend easily, i can never hang out with him more then 3 times a week, & i limit things i do in front of him, but when im with you.. haha arent you lucky? im still not sick of you! i love you i love you i love you! BE MINE FOREVERRR.

Baby,
I just remembered tomorrow is three months. I will not let you go.

You,
I'm sorry that was such bullshit. You have issues.

You,
I really had hella fun kicking it wit chu. It was weinrg hanging out with my boy's ex but still it was coo. We gotta do that again. Hahah.

You,
Toughen up a little, shit.

YOU PEOPLE,
CALLL me. I wanna go to schooool!!

: I love you, Baby You better come see me tomorrow. Can't wait for Sunday night and all of Monday

__why are you giving me a attitude? what did i do wrong now? ahhh. can ANY of you just f**king TALK to me.

__you dont trust me, do you?
i promise you, i dont like him or even both of them.
your the only one i want. i promise.
how will i gain your trust?

^Please don't double post Just edit your first post. And welcome to cb. :]

You,
I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you. I never will be.

: You try to act like you know so much when really this is all new to you. Stay with your britney spears fan club you stupid slut. Stay away from him. The only reason they even talk to you is because you have massive boobs and look good.

*i love you to death and you know it, and i hate to admit this but its true...
you tell me you're going to be more trustworthy...you suck at it
when you makes a promise i expect you to keep it, especially when i've told you countless of time how much i hate when people tell me they're going to do something and dont do it.
*Btw* Happy Birthday ...you're now illegal for me, just frickin great

: I hate you. I hate living with you.
how dare you say i'm jealous of you're stupid kiddy relationship.
f**k you.

Babaaay,
Threee months. I really want to hang out with you tomorrow since you'll finally be able to. & plus, I reaaaaaaally need to talk to you.

that was so much fun!

: All you had to do was call me during lunch

:
All you have to fcuking do is pick up the motherfcuking phone .. dial my number & say " Hi Lorena, I'm still fcuking alive." ! Shitt. It's only cus you fcuking WORRY ME. you idiot, you make me mad.

:

It was today, right now. At this sameeeee exact time.

:

"trying to holler, i got my thizz face saying im coo" ahaha that was so funny.

Thanks for being so damn nice for once in a lifetime. Let me go to the party please. :[

__HAH! this is exactly what i mean! YOU GUYS DONT GIVE A MOTHERFREAKING SHIT DO YOU? the only person i respect from all of you is SHE. cause you guys leave her out too. & dont give a god dawm shit. i havent been going to school for a reason you know?! dont you think i have ENOUGH sleep? ITS ALL B/C I DONT WANNA PUT UP WITH YOU PEOPLE ANYMORE, CAUSE ALL IM GOING TO FEEL IS LIKE ! you guys can careless hmm?

me: "why didnt you go?"
SHE: "they didnt invite me.."

WHAT THE FRUCKS? she one of the MAINEST girl in our group. & SHE WAS ACCTUALLY FREE! DO YOU KNOW HOW RARE THAT IS? how the f**k.. UGH FORGET IT.

__& YOU! im starting to think you dont even give a shit anymore. you dont care anymore do you? out of everyone i would think you knew better i can understand you dont trust me. & truthfully im starting to not trust you either. you re-gained my trust from what had happened in our last relationship because i learn how to forgive & forget. but now i dont even know anymore. you dont even seem to care anymore, & e havent been together for a pretty long time..WHO KNOWS what you can be doing. & you seem to be talking to her alot..

__if i dont wanna f**king tell you then i WONT. PERIOD. END OF STORY. leave me the hell alone! & threatening me isnt going to do much good either, it just shows me how much of an a-hole you are & immature you are. how would you like if i told everyone who asked me your secret? not that much heh? THEN STOP ASKING ME! my mouth is SHUT

I miss the days when you'd tell you loved me....

Oh. And your girlfriend is dumb as a fcuking post.

___,
I spend a whole day without thinking about you.

____,
I wished you were at the grad dinner/dance last night . Aww, I miss you love. I had a blast there, I wished you were there so I could of spent that moment with you.

& You....

I HATE you. You're a lil girl in a grown mans body. 1 day ur slamming me against walls yelling in my face. The next I have ur mother threatening to call the police on me.

To let u know. U shoving me into walls never made me fear u. It made me hate u more. & u were never a good friend.

I know who u really r. A boy of no experience, no life, nothing. when I asked u for advice. U told me to ask my other friend. I believe its sad becuz there is no excuse for why ur like this.

I understand why u and ur father don't get along. Ur pathetic. He's disgusted in u. And joining the army isn't gonna make him proud. And it won't make u a man.

Its gonna give ur mother a chance to go on HBO and talk about ur death.


Oh yeah and that spanish kid u saw me with on the day of the Math regents. He replaced u. Yeah it is true what John said.

John - Once one door closes two doors open.

Ur door is closed.

I love how we're talking one on one you're so innocent and then when we're with the guys you're so ... the opposite innocent. " YOU'RE HELLA GAY BRO "

i love it a lot. and i wasn't mad last night you just got me tongue tied ..

Mom,

You know what? I f**king hate you sometimes. WTF you don't even f**king KNOW HER. Don'te f**king tell me who to hang out with or not. shit she's not even like that. i have friends who are f**king hoes yet you like them & she dont do shit. f**k you & my sis

You're never smiling in any of your pictures... You always look so serious; is that how you want to be remembered? Sigh, I want a smiling picture of you. I want you to sign my yearbook! And, now I can email you without worrying about stalking you (thank you directory hah).

Heyy honey, thanks for making me happy after I was mad. <3 I love you, and thanks for getting me that job. Hope to see you soon!

Baby,
You're an idiot. I can't believe how you can handle it all. Ughhh.

Soooo when do I get to see you? Next Thursday, actually? =( Oh well. I hate studyingggggggggggggg. Blah.. miss you. It's only been 2 days though, and I talked to you right before bed last night. So It's really quite pathetic. I think I'll go work on stopping with this whole being-so-attached thing now =P. Talk to you soon.

edit/ thanks for calling baby. =) Lovely hearing your voiceeee. Keeping up this calling the days you don't see me even though you're out with your friends... pretty damn amazing. =P Love you.

dear math provincial,
you royally screwed me today. ARRRGH =*(

______,
Hey love, I am glad we are on good terms. I honestly did not want to leave the school with bad blood between us. You been a great friend this year & many years before & I didn't want to leave you behind. I hope in high school we can still hang out & stuff. I'm gonna miss you this summer.

_____,
Gah, I don't know if it's wrong to miss you or not. I feel so pissed when I see you talking/flirting with other girls & it's not even my right to be jealous anymore. -sigh- I'm gonna miss you in a way & I'm gonna be glad in many other ways that you won't be with me next year. We had our memories & I guess it's finally time I leave you behind. -sigh- God, I miss you baby.

Is it sad thats this is the way I want to live life. And maybe when Im older, I will actually look back and say I wasted my years, building a name. But when it all comes down to it, im living now. And if i die, I die a legend, or at least I'd hope so.

: Baby, I love you sooooooo much. Sorry I'm always nagging at you... and arguing... and giving you shit, but I do it because I care Thank you for everything

Baby,
eehh..im leaving tomorrow. =[ today's our last day together and i want to make the best of it. i really don't want to leave..i wish i could stay home and live with you. haha. well im coming over in a couple of hours so ill see you then. i love you so much and yesterday was amazing.

_____:
Had lotsa fun today! Thanks for being so sweet

_____:
Thanks for the chat. I feel a lot better I don't know what i'll do without you~
Even though i know i'm nothing but a friend... i should let you know that you mean the world to me...

Last night was awesome. I can't believe I won't see you for three weeks. I still have so many questions.

Baby,
ughhh i really don't want to leave. im gunna miss you so much. it feels like spring break all over again when you left for florida. atleast we'll be able to talk every night and throughout the day...

i love you so much<3333

Fine. Stop talking to me then. Act like everything never happened. I asked you, you said you were alright with it. You're making me feel so bad, but all I did was tell you the truth .. which you didn't.

Why.. why did your cousin have to use your phone and call my number? You know me wanting to know the people who's calling me. Why did I had to text you the next day asking who it is. .. . Why.

wow.

_______________

Ahh I love you buddy. I'd love to get to know you more, but I guess no one has the guts to ask eachother if we'd like to kick it :p And we need to stop being shy on the phone/etc .. seems like the only way we could get a conversation going is on AIM hahaa. Shynesss

Are you sure I'm what you want? If it's this hard to drop a text on me now, when you're not working, not even in school, what's going to happen when your plate gets really full? I know I've said its okay that we don't talk for a week at a time, but I lied. I hate it when I don't hear from you. You told me you've been busy these past couple days. You're always too busy for me now.

---

You would have been perfect for me. I know we both wish it at some points. And we both know that since I've gotten in so deep, it can never happen.

Thanks for making my day fun. ;D I can't wait until your next birthday, so we can play with water balloons again. Haha. And, by the way, your friend is a hater. :[

Baby,
I really wanted to see you & hang out with you, stupid shit. Why'd you have to go camping? AHHHH. It was fcuking perfect to have you the wholeeeeeeee day. Well I might see you tmorrow if I don't go out .. lol & I think its funny how you just knew when I was going to call & you told your mommy to tell me & stuff. Hahah. Well I'll see you soon.

______:
Girl, it was hella coo kicking it with you today. I had hella fun even if we didn't do much. It was nice catchng up with you & talking about all our stuff . I trust you, ya know. & I'm glad you could talk to me about your dad & stuff.

Hahaha sorry for putting you through that little guilt trip. It's just that I terribly want to see you and I want to make you feel bad so I get to see you more. Yeah I'm being selfish. But you're ditching me for 2 months so I think I have the right to be. =P Man... you're only gonna be here for 10 days for the rest of the entire year.... THAT'S SO DEPRESSING. I wonder where we'll be in 3 months time. Hmmm. Well. No worries. Everything will unfold through time. Remember that I love you. Good luck running tomorrow.

Two weeks and I won't have you around as a physical reminder anymore.

Too bad that doesn't help at all.

____,
Lately eveytime I think about you I get emotional. My eyes tear up & I feel like crap. Honestly if I could of choose, I would of choose us of not to happen. Yeah, I had great times with you but now that your gone, my world just keeps going downhill without you. Our relationship was much better of as friends, we could of hung out this summer but you had to f**k it up. Damn boy, I miss you.

What's sad is knowing I'll never surmount to what you want, but yet I keep trying. And I know I'm not even supposed to like you, I push you away every time you try to get close but it's cos we can't. It sounds to stupid, Lol but we're FORBIDDEN Haha. Like some stupi d movie. But its whatever ya femmy ? Cos you're SUPPOSED to be under the impression that i already got me a nigga, but you're so persistent and touchy and cute. But i dont like that either. There you are under the impression i have a boyfriend but yet you come over and sit next to me and grab for my hand and hold me and touch me. What if we did go out, I know you would do that to other girls, like you doin' right now. And i get jealous, but I can't help it. If you pay attention to me like tjat, of course ima notice you. Of course ima get jealous when i find im not the only girl you be that way with. But its whatever. I reaaally need to get you out my system tho.

-
Beeeetch. Hook it up, I need me some.

To Mi Amigo

(Just so you know I've given up on you)


You're always looking past me


(you broke my heart again)

____,
If it's worth your while
Say something, say something
If it's worth your while
Say something good to me

Mariah Carey Ft. Snoop Dogg & Pharrell - Say Something.

____,
Gah, I miss you so f**king much. Don't I mean anything to you after all we been through? f**k it. I can't believe you.

Person,
dsasdfghhgfdsadfgh. Ugh. You make me mad. I'm over you...for good.

Dearest you,
I wish I had the courage to tell you that I like you. Or...you would actually open your eyes and know that I like you...I've never felt this way towards another guy before...please..give us a chance..?

If i'm thinking what you're doing is true. You're an idiot. You can't say what you said and do what you did and just dipset like that. That's f**ked up. Thanks a lot of being a "real" friend. I really thought you'd stay put with me. I thought I finally found someone who I could be real close friends with, but I guess not. I was thinking ... " ohh we gonna have so much fun this summer cause we're gonna kick it and stuff ", but no. ... I don't know I can't get this out of my head. I know.. it's cause I miss talking to you everyday. Dude, we talked like everyday since the beginning of May. And a day without a comment, text, IM from you feels so awkward. I mean you got this girl messed up for you. But anyways I got your cousin to keep my head on my shoulders. Teehee it was fun while it lasted

__things were going fine, i felt wanted again. & you had to spoil it. i know im not ALWAYS 24/7 available online & so forth but would it hurt much to call me to hang out? your always leaving me out like i have no feelings. whatever. do what you want.

_im sorry i havent been with you these days. i miss you terribly.

we're strangers, but i like you.

: Just stop! It hurts like hell!!

Being mean to me and talking behind my back isn't going to help me get over you, it's just going to make me cry even more!

You: Ffs, stop trying to make me jealous with your bf.