you whore stop doing this!

I love you? Or do I just think I do because I want you back and I miss you a lot..I'm afraid you'll find someone in two weeks of camp..then there's definitely no hope for me..

:haha...*shurgs* what you want me to do about it.

: Go away. Uhg.
: Thank you for trusting me. I hope we won't stop talking when school starts. Even if we do, we still have a month of summer left. It makes me happy that we can be honest with each other.

A and S: i have and will keep both your secrets, i promise :)

D: why...i know how conceited this sounds but it needs to be said...why can't you get over me. all that alcohol really brought out the truth in you. now i know why you were avoiding me all night. why can't i just have a good guy friend for one fcuking time.

K: hope your head's okay! ooh drunken escapades :P

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I still can't believe this trial is going on and that I was asked to be one of your character witnesses. I couldn't do it. Not just because it would be extremely complicated due to the fact that I know both you and the person who was killed and everyone involved but because I don't even know you that well. How would I be able to justify me saying I know you didn't kill him? But yeah...it's been nearly a year since this happened and what a year it's been, huh? I hope you're doing okay. I heard you're apparently super skinny now and you broke out really badly and you just seem sad and quiet all the time. I'm definitely praying for you and everyone else. I don't know the full extent of what's going on with the trial now but god damn, just give up their names.

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I wasn't expecting to see you today, but I knew you were there right when I saw your Infinity parked out front. It kind of threw me off. There are so many reasons why I really need to not like you.

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I still miss you. "When can I see you again, when can my heart beat again, when can I see you again." Remember when you sent me this song?? It seems like such a long time ago. Today during service we talked about how it's really important to restore friendships with people. I tried so damn hard to just be your friend...I wish you could see that and realize that maybe you should try too. I don't understand why you don't want to be my friend.

Hey, remember me? You're girlfriend? I'm afraid to check my email or look on my phone or log onto AIM... because you might have not tried to talk to me. You never seem to try anymore.
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I wish I was with you instead. I feel like I already am.

Stupidcuntfaceuglylyingpsycho,

I f**king hate you so much. You left me an anxiety to remember you by but I don't plan on letting it get to me. I will kick it away just like I kicked you out of my life.



Boy,

I can't have you. Sorry.

_________,
Yo! I'm not waiting for you anymore. Why? Cuz you don't know what the hell your doing with yourself anymore. First its some bitch with crutches, then some pathetic dominican at your dentist office, then some bitch from the 8th grade. Go chill with her. But I know our conversation last night is always and forever will be in your head.




cuz you don't know if your coming or or going.

______: YOU ARE GONE!!!

YEEEEEEEEEEEEES. wait, no? I DON'T KNOW. but please don't call me anymore. AHHHHHH

K: Thanks babe. I miss you and the other one haha...its been too long. =p
C: Hey youuu. Happy birthday again! You looked beautiful, and your party was great.
A: So...what is up with us? Its been so...up and down lately. Its driving me a bit crazy and I feel so lost.
L: I wonder why you thought I didn't want to anymore... Ah well. Have your 'gathering' Friday by the way! haha

: I get to see you tomorrow, yay. Can't wait.

Dear you,


I need to let go of you. i NEED to. but i dont want to, and i dont know how.
I thought this was something different. I thought I was happy, i thought you were happy. i guess we WERE.


I need to stop lying to myself.

Time should tell everything.
Im stupid for falling so deep. Dumb for being so unprepared.
I just thought... but that doesnt matter anymore.
what you want matters, what i want matters, it's just a pity we dont want the same thing.
whatever happens, thank you for the year and three months. We've matured, changed, whatever you want to call it. The memories.. will never be forgotten.

: Wow, interesting phone conversation last night. Too bad it put me in a fcuking bad mood then and even 'til now, huh?

: ..just get off my back.

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I can't believe this. You! You put the E in MEN. EVIL. I can't believe all the stuff you've done to people. Your horrible. I don't want to know sommeone like you. But I like how you pretend to be on the grind, some hard working dude when you talk to me.

: Yeah see, like this. Right now. WHAT THE FCUK?!

: ..damn. You got me in a hella' bad mood and you can always make up for it--to the point of making me tear up due to happiness. Oh my gee.

*so todays the "big" 4 months. and i feel like i fell in love with you all over again...in a way im happy for the huge fight we had because i think it actually brought us closer. im not saying we should do it more often because i damn near cried myself to sleep, i couldnt because i wasnt alone though...but anywho. i love you and i hope that we last...

*our relationship is growin again. your not as annoying as i previously thought....your my bestfriend and i love you but i dont need to talk to you every day. i understand you have problems but everyday isnt a problem...

*how dare you. you vile creature. leave me and my man alone, he didnt do anything so back off.you have balls tryin to mess up my relationship when your cheating yourself. go be happy else where

you're not cool

So this is it. I'm handling it well, I guess.

I still love you, but you're such an a-hole.

I let myself think about what it would be like if there was actually an "us". It was nice for about two seconds. Then I realized that I love you too much to go there.

I'm yours. Please take me.

New onneee.