well, i don't really know what the point to this is.... i just wanted to know what you guys think about my 'love life.'

well, basicly, i don't have a love life. i have... guys. no boyfriends. no romantic dates. i meet guys, hook up, do stuff... lasts about two seconds. i mean, yes, i have fun and i want to do it again... but i mean, i wish i had one hot guy that i loved and loved me in return. i wish i could have a MEANINGFUL love life. not just a little fling here and there. let me put it to you this way.... i'm a twelve year old in seventh grade and i've hooked up woth TEN GUYS!!! i mean, for someone my age, i've hooked up with ALOT!!! and i mean, again, it's fun, but nothing that is really special and intamate.

today i met this one guy at the mall. i kinda met him once before. his name is gary and he's really cute. i met him once before and that was only for like ONE SECOND. and today we saw each other at the mall, started hugging alot, flirting, i sat on his lap, we pecked each other on the lips, he is now my quote on quote sex bitch (i have six new sex bitches that i got tonight), then later, we went outside the foodcourt and started hooking up. i mean, yeah... he's a wonderful kisser and i'd love to do it again, but i mean there's no meaning or passion behind them. it would be nice to have a real relationship with gary (even though i barly know him. like, if i got to know him) but, i just feel so... alone. you know what i mean?

heyyy yur still young, i dont think people realli know waht "love" is until they gain life experiences. i can imagine this is hard now, but yu still got a ways to go hun, yu have plenty of time to find a decent bf (besides, i know sum ppl who didnt have an actual bf until they were 20 ) so DONT RUSH INTO THINGS!!

p.s if sumone is calling yu his "sex bitch" i dont think hes da rite one for you, who know waht his real intentions are

lol. they don't call me their sex bitch. they're my sex bitch. we're just messing. i've never had any sex with any of them, so they're really not my sex bitches. it's just funny. but i'm not necissarily looking for all true love, i'm just looking for someone who doesn't like me for what i'm willing to do or how i look. i mean, that might be one reason but i don't want it to be the reason. well, i guess it's kinda like my fault cuz i do rush things with guys and i'm never in the right place to meet guys who like me for me and not just my tongue or hips or thighs. you know?

i dunno.. yea flings are fun but i tend to feel guilty afterwards.. maybe u shouldnt flirt too much... sometimes the more u want something the more it wont come... i think u should be who u are and if gary sees who u really are and likes u for who u are, then u found ur guy =)

i don't feel guilty.... i just feel.... empty... is that the right word for it? well, i am flurtacious by nature. i mean, honestly, it might have alot to do with my past. i might flirt alot because i want attension. when i was young i didn't get alot of needed attension from my mom. that might be part of it. i duno. i hope i do find someone that i can really connect with soon.

i don't feel guilty.... i just feel.... empty... is that the right word for it? well, i am flurtacious by nature. i mean, honestly, it might have alot to do with my past. i might flirt alot because i want attension. when i was young i didn't get alot of needed attension from my mom. that might be part of it. i duno. i hope i do find someone that i can really connect with soon.

if u want attention cant u get it from ur friends tho..? do u really need guys attention..? if they dont see u, they're blind lols i think u should have ur own self esteem and self confidence and not use attention to gain the esteem andconfidence =)

lol. umm... i don't have any close relationships with friends. i mean, i'll hug em and kiss some of em, but that's it. i rarly spend the night at a friends' house or anything. i wish i could spend the night at a guys' house. hehe. me good! *smirk* lol. i wouldn't be aloud to do that in like a million years... of course. but... whatever!

well, i ono. take it slow. i know how you feel about relationships lasting like 2 seconds, i know exactly how you feel.