okay..so im going out with we'll call him *james* haha..but yeah..i've always had feelings for this other guy..the other guys name is michael and he was my first boyyfriend and my first love and everything..and i recently told james that i still think about michael and that i always have pictured spending the rest of my life with michael and i still do....and of course james was upset at first..but he was just like "okay..well thats how you feel..hopefully i can make you feel differently..thanks for being honest blah blah blah" thennnnnnn i went on another screen name and IMed michael to see what he thought about me..(( we havent talked for 2 years and our relationship didnt end well)) and herres our convo

me: hey you dont know me but i have a friend who likes you and was wondering if you have a gf. shes too chicken to ask you
him: no, wait who is this
me: she said you're going out with katie still
me: im just a friend of a friend you dont know me
him: wtf???
him: well first im not going out with katie
him: we stopped dating like the first day of school
me: ok well don't get mad at me thats just what my friend said
me: i dont know you, im just doing my friend a favor
him: well this is wierd
him: so why dont you tell me who your friend is
him: b/c i will go talk to them and things wont be weird
me: ok its christina t****o my friend
me: do you even know who she is?
him: yea i know her
me: oh ok then well yeah she told me to IM you and ask you if you had a gf cuz i guess shes had a huge crush on you since the beginning of time
him: yea she has
him: she lives in san fransico
me: yeah she moved there a while ago
me: she said that you guys dont talk
him: we dont anymore
me: well sorry for like randomly IMing you, i bet it was weird
him: no, not really
me: so were you guys good friends before or what?
him: we were friends i have known her for a while
me: oh thats cool
me: she says you were her first love or whatever
him: haha thats cute
me: she has a pic when you were like at one of her birthday parties or something and its all decorated and crap
him: yea i was probally liek two
me: haha you guys look older but definetely under 10
him: hahaha
him: shes nice
me: yeah she is nice
me: she lies a lot though
me: to make her life seem like something its not
him: yea ive heard that
he...is away at 5:19:05 PM.

sOoOoOoO..apparently i didnt get anything out of him.. ((by the way that picture thing isnt true and i dont lie a lot either LoL)) anywayyyyyy..after all that..im debating on if i should tell michael how i feel about him or just leave him alone and be happy with james?? i mean im happy with him..but yeah..i dont know..im confused...oh yeah..then i IMed michael the other day on the same screen name and was like "christina said to IM her on TiNaBaBY143MPS cos she needs to talk to you" and he never IMed me on my screen name...so should i just like forget about the way i feel or what?? and im not shure if i want to tell michael the way i feel because i want to be with him or because i just want to get it off my chest..ya know?? please help...

first of all that IM thing was so not imature...if it was then...i must've been perttie imature...cuz i did that to my 'first love' to...love is confusing isnt it?i want to tell him i love him so much but i can only guess hiz reaction...prolly not all it seems...but i can guess...lols...he has this 'gf' or wutever...[he has her name all over tha place]...and yea...i cant get to em can i...?lols...but i dont kno....i dont kno you all that well...but i can guess that you have ALOT of courage....or its that you have alot of courage and cant find it....lols...but yu have it of course....so i think that if yu want to be honest with him...just tell him....if he like...goes balistic or something just because he dont like you...then i dont really think he's tha one for you...i have no idea if any of this is helping you but i am just speaking wuts on my mind...maybe....if yu really feel that he's tha one....then maybe...you should wait for him....OR....you could take tha chance with tha guy you're with...you guys seem happy together lols~just follow your heart....x] ehehe good luck thoughh

yeah..thanks for your help..you realli got me thinkin now hehe..anyone else have anything helpful??

If you like your old bf, forget about the new one or something. It will break the new ones heart but he will have to live with it and simply move on. Or you can just stay with him and wish for best. Who knows...you might fall in love with him.

maybe the reason he didn`t IM you was either 1) he doesn`t want to talk on AIM, he wants it in person [most guys want to talk to the girl in person] 2) he forgot the sn 3) he`s not interested.

sorry if what i said was kinda sad.. ...you gotta think to yourself...what happened? what happened back then? i have no idea what happened back then between you and michael...but what caused it to...be gone..? the sparks and all..? when did you start thinking about michael? was he always on your mind before you liked or went out with james?

i mean...that`s really cute that you still have feelings for your first crush/love. but you have to make up your mind girl. that`s all i can say to you. i don`t want to convince you into making a wrong decision...i don`t want the responsibility of that. neither does createBlog.com . i`m just kidding there...we do care about you and your feelings.

as a last thing to say...how about seeing michael in person? when was the last time you saw him? it would be nice to see him in person...maybe it would affect your decision by seeing him in person...

well its kind of hard to see him in person because i live in san francisco and he lives in san diego..and he's been on my mind on and off before and after i started going out with james..i forgot about him for a while during the first half of mine -n- james' relationship..but then this last have hes been on my mind a lot..but thanks for your advice..you REALLI helped me A LOT

aww...well..you need to consider the fact that you two can barely see each other. or even haven`t seen each other for a long time.

many people think back then to their past loves...it`s normal. but it doesn`t necessarily mean that you have to love that person again. it`s a possibility to love the same person again.

maybe it`s just...you`re thinking too much about him...i mean..you`re thinking about a person you barely seen in a long time...people change..

if i were you...i would forget about him. he should be the one to love you more and want to be together again with you. it would work better that way...

you`re welcome.