I'm new at this createblog, but I just needed some space where I can just pour out my feelings with out having anyone close to me find out, everyone I know is nosey =/.

I woke up today not feeling anything but sad. The dream i had last night was anything but ordinary, just having your close one taking the person you like away from you.

Well here it is, I like my cousin's "bestfriend." He's the one i'd fiend for right now, because i feel like i'm infatuated, that i'd drop everything on the floor if he wanted a hug from me. (Not obssessed, infatuated.) But right now i feel she might like him too ;>.> and in my head i say "OH C'MON YOU GOT SOMEONE!" Its clearly stated i want her best friend. Lately since she found out i like him and he likes her, she's been bragging about how many people she made jealous by hugging him. and its ticking me off! I am trying to be the bigger person and let it go, but at times i just wanna tackle her off a cliff and drown her in water. , hopefully only imagining that will satisfy mee n__n;.

I can't talk to her, because it makes the scenario worse. I be patient and she just nods her head, and i feel like the words that come out my mouth go through her right ear and come out the left.

just needed somewhere to post this.

i have an idea of what you're going through. since i grew up with every single of the boys i adored, adoring my sister. completely. she was older, prettier, more mysterious. and all i ever heard from them was about her.

the best you can do is try to get him to be your friend also. friendships are the foundation for everything else. if you can get him to realize how wonderful you are, he'll see you as someone other than his bestfriend/crush's cousin.

goodluck.

Yes, I totally understand you.

All the advice I can give you is, don't even think about letting him go (; I agree with that person, you should definitely try to befriend him. &my input is learn how to play the game ;P you know, get the mysterious vibe thhang going. But don't be all perky. Subtle flirting is beautiful =] let him know you're into him, but don't make it seem you're GAGA for him. Have some..er..self-control? & be reserved. Most guys dig that;] & gooood luck!