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To Christina--
Thanks for driving me tonight! What a waste of our lives! :)

To _________ :
Cute speech, you're wonderful!!

--Teesa
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To _________ :
Don't let her get to you. I miss seeing that smile and that spark in your eye! I know things didn't work out so well today, but I'm here to back you up any day.

To _________ :
Freaking a! I didn't see you. Should I make it obvious that I like you or something??

You,
I don't think i"m ever going to be able to forget you or forgive you. I tried to. I've tried. I swear. I put it on anything that I have tried to love you, forgive you. It's just toooo much anger built up inside of me. Fourteen years of being ignored aren't the easiest to forget, you know. You never understood that and never will.

You,
Let's be real. We both feel the same about each other. Even if we ddin't tell each other, it was obvious because of what happened. What's going on this week though? I wish you acted different. I know, I know, I knowwww. Show me.

You,
I don't like you. I hate you. I hate your f**king guts. No, I don't wanna be coo with you. Noo. Shit.

Dear Teesa,
You're welcome! Seriously. NO FREAKING CHIPOTLE how rude.
-Me.

Dear You,
I agree with Teesa! Hopefully we're talking about the same person. You're so cute adding that little bit into your speech. Congratulations to you!
-Me.

Dear You,
I saw you again today. One day maybe we'll talk or something.
-Me.

Dear You,
I saw you again today too. Why am I attracted to you? I don't know. Hopefully I'll see you Thursday and Friday too! I want us to talk again and to actually hang out.
-Me.

Dear You,
Dickhead. TALK TO ME. Stupid piece of shit is what you are. I don't know how or why I still love you but since you supposedly do too, why haven't you replied yet? Do I need to drive up to Golden and ring your doorbell? Will that make you grow a backbone and talk to me.
PLEASE tell me what is going on.
-Me.

dear you,

it's funny how the sadness lessens everyday, yet somehow it just rises up again in a fresh wave. and after all this time and healing, i still wish so much that you'd come back. i just wish i knew if you were ok, how you were doing... i know you're probably happier there, you probably have a girlfriend and have forgotten all about me. if i was ever even in your life...

You are completely ridiculus.

I want to hate you.

But I can't.

You,
I'm dying here.

Dear You,
I'm wondering how you're doing. I haven't seen you in a long time. He said he saw you and that you were extremely skinny, like you haven't eaten in a long time. I can imagine. I still can't believe you're in jail for this and that you're not giving up names. Damnit, give up their names. They deserve to pay for killing him, not you.
-Me.

_______ Get out of dream land and come back reality. I cant believe you may be willing to ruin our friendship because of him.

You,
Get over it. He's going to dump you. If you want the relationship to last, stop acting like such a P**sy. Jeez. It's not that fcking hard.

You,
Can you stop lying? I can't handle the fcking lies you're telling. I really can't. I saw the way you were staring at me. Can you just stop it?! Djsgjwdhkfsdh.

I'm going to miss you so very much.

_________________, you'll regret that.

_____,
You suck.

______,
Argh, you spoiled little brat! Make me wait in the freaking car in the hot sun for like 30 minutes when I'm sick!

_____:

I loved spending time with you today
I flinched when you laid your hand on me
I swear i felt a wave of idontknowwhat wash over me
(Slight panic, realization, thrill?)
And you could probably see it in my eyes that i was ecstatic.....
But then i was shocked
And now i'm not sure about the _ _ business anymore.....

"Miss you!"
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e d i t

Wow... that photo makes my heart flutter.....

Hmmmm. This has always been strange.

when i fall, i fall hard, way too hard. i prefer hurting physically to this. i play sports, for the adrenaline rush, to occupy myself with something other than you. i don't believe i've ever liked a guy so much before, but obviously, you don't feel the same way. for me, it feels like whenever i'm with you, it wouldn't matter if the earth would fall apart, because you make me feel that everything's just going to be okay. (cliche..yeah yeah) but with you, i feel that my imperfections don't matter, because you don't seem to judge me for them. you make me laugh, you make me smile, whenever. even when i'm down, when i'm crying, you can bring a smile to my face. what's it truly like to be in love? i honestly don't know. but right now, i think that you're the perfect guy, in every single way. true, granted that you're so much different from the guys i used to like, but it just feels so right. when we talk, i don't feel any awkward moments. or, maybe i'm just stupid, and i can't tell between right and wrong. maybe i'm lying to myself, but can't you see how i feel? you're such an amazing guy, i only wish you liked me more than just as a friend.

To ________ :
You can be soooo annoying. Really. I am going to miss you in college next year, but I am sort of glad that you're going out of state.

--Teesa

i can NOT wait until this summer to see you. i really hope you make it here safely! hehe i miss talking to you already (even though we talked like a few days ago), lols. i just miss you okay?! goshhh! hehehe i just want to be close to you and hold you tight...i hope one day you'll tell me that everything you've said to me was absolutely true and came from your heart. ^_____^ hehe i just can't wait to be with you
continue to make me smile...

Baby,

wow. if everything works out tonight then ill be so happy and we'll have such a great time! i hope becca's mom lets me sleep over even though nobody will be home. then you can ride your bike over and we can hang out and maybe you can sleep over?! yeah right...that would be too good to be true. we'll see what happens. love youuu<3

What the f**k. I am fourteen damn years old, And I know i might as well be an adult but i just found it ridiculous that you actually really think I am " You are an adult now " WTF. I've been doin' what I do to survive since I was a lil ass kid and you got the damn audactity to tell me I need to start being responsible. EXCUSE ME ? I think I've been responsible enough to keep my ass alive, and im just trying to put on the facade of a normal kid and so what if i act a little childish, I didnt have a childhood. So what if i get immature, i am STILL young. I have years and years and years ahead of me to put everything i've learned on the streets from when i was little to use. FUCKKK YOU.

To ____:
Do you really enjoy breaking people's hearts? Because if you do, I was your next victim. But, deep inside of me still likes you somehow. I'll just have to wait for your call. I get way too nervous around you. I'm sick of these friggin' feelings! How can you break my heart, and still like me? Call me. I'm waiting...by the phone. I don't even know if this was all a friggin' LIE. If it is, your a big friggin' jerk! You hurt me.


To ______:
I really enjoyed your company yesterday and today. Thanks for making me feel better.

To Daniel;

This is what's on my mind; but I haven't made it official. So please understand baby...

Whether you find this or not, there's a few things I need to get off my chest. Please don't take this the wrong way baby. I love you so much, but I need some time to think about how our relationship is at the moment. I know that this is probably something you don't want to hear but, it hurting me and I need to tell you. I know you might be confused, you don't know what's going on...but. I don't know how to explain it. This week...I don't know why but. We've been having some problems with each other. I can tell we've been getting on each others nerves. Trust me, it pains me to say this. I'm tearing just writing this. Please understand that...I think it's best if we should just get some space from each other. Please don't be sad...I promise, that this is no excuse to split up...I just think I really need some time to think and I think it's best if we get some space from each other. My feelings haven't changed for you, and that's what I want you to know from the start. But. I don't know. I'm so sorry I have to say this, I don't mean to hurt you in anyway, trust me I don't. But this is killing me, and the only thing I'm doing to you right now is hurting and confusing you. I know, I know. But; maybe it's just me who sees this problem and I'm sorry for everything. Hear me out sweetie, but I think that this is what's best for us at the moment. I love you with all my heart, believe me I do. You mean the world to me, and I appreciate how you're always there for me. But I'm having some problems with myself right now. Let me start by apologizing for everything I've done to you. I'm sorry for taking my temper out on you, I'm sorry for making you mad, I'm sorry for asking so many questions, I'm sorry for being stubborn, and I'm so sorry for doing this. I know you might not think that this is best right now, but we need to talk. This is the only time I ever see us getting to communicate other than in person. I'm so sorry babe. I never meant to hurt you for anything. I...just need some time to think sweetie. I'm so so sorry...I love you so much, please understand that it's really not you...it's just me. I love you so much Daniel...and I'm sorry again that you have to read this. Please understand; that this has nothing to do with anything bad...like feelings for someone else. Believe me, I serously think that you're the only one for me. But I think what we need now is some space. I am so sorry Daniel. please. Forgive me. I can understand if you don't want to talk to me after reading this...I love you so much Daniel. I promise I won't go. I promise.

Love, Jane.

You,
I love you but I'm not in love with you. People never get that.

You,

Ahh I had so much fun today. Too bad we didn't do much studying! Haha, but seriously, I really look forward to our little 'study sessions' with you guys. And Allen, with your funny stories, oh boy. I'm also kinda glad that ___ wasn't there because he can get a bit annoying... But I can't wait till our next math test because I can't wait until our next math study session/dinner/party ahah.

<3 Good luck tomorrow honey. I hope to see you over the weekend! You better know that I love you.

_________________, wow you're awesome.
S________________, You still haven't said anything.

im such an idiot. i miss you already.

_________________, do you understand why i listed you first?

You,
my godddddddd. i'm feeling crazy. crazy. motherfcuking crazy. you, you, you!

To ____: You know what. Ugh. You're just...uhh..my life. I can't say anything bad about you though you've broke my heart. I hope you call me.

You're so ungiving. You're fighting over that? You have no heart. You are dead to me now.

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Wow, what a great way to say good night. "Go die"

WTF??!!!
CHRIS BROWN TICKETS ARE ONLY 25$ AND HES COMING TO MY HOOD!! WTF? I HAVE TO GO.. AND GUESS WHAT I AM PLANNING ON BEING ON THAT 8 O CLOCK SHOW ON MARCH 24TH!!!
damn im excited about it.

I don't know why I feel like this. I'm sorry... I feel like I've been the worst girlfriend possible lately... I don't try to talk to you, I don't show appreciation, I don't give you affection... I don't know what's gotten into me, I just feel like crap and I don't even have a reason for it. Everytime I'm not with you I just want to be with you and talk to you and have you with me but when I'm with you it seems so... blah, and though I totally enjoy your company I can't find a way to express it. I love you and I'm sorry... I hope I can make it up to you somehow... and I hope I can figure out what's going on. Thank you for driving me today.

Even though I want to bitch you out and cut you loose, I'll give it another try.

Siggggh. I love you babe. :) Thank you for 'not minding at all'. I know you probably don't particularly enjoy feeling like you're being neglected but I am so relieved you understand my tendencies. I'm nervous about Fridayyyyy but glad I get to see you. Heheh, good luck tomorrow.

_____:
I check my contact list every five minutes in search of your screen name
I hang around the gym everyday in hopes of catching a glimpse of you
I stare into your eyes whenever i get the chance because i'm afraid it's my last chance
A wave of ecstasy crashes over me whenever i hear you call my name

Why?

it's like..i'm looking for you...but i get so sad because well, you're no where near...ehh it's kind of hard to fall in like with someone, but theres no way to be with them you know? i don't know...i just miss what it was like BEFORE all of that nonsense...maybe i was just imagining things? ehhh who knows...i guess it's not important...i'll just wait for you...

Baby,

i can't wait until this weekend! well, tomorrow especially...because it's our 3 month anniversary. =] damn, these last 3 months have gone by so fast...i can't believe it. going out to dinner tomorrow then going back to your house for the rest of the night on top of that will be really fun...then being able to come over again all day saturday = amazing. i love youuu<3

To: _____ i can`t believe what you did to me! how could you? your really an effing
jerk and you deserve a ho like her. whatever!

To:____
i effing love you

oh goshh. you can change my feelings so easily. if you're there, i'll be happy as ever. when you're gone, i'm depressed as every.

i hope you can see that you'll always, i mean ALWAYS have my love <3

thank you!!!!

OHH BOY I'D BE IN TROUBLE IF YOU LEFT ME NOW
CAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO LOOK FOR LOVE, I JUST DON'T KNOW HOWWWWW

Dear You,
I decided. I'm going to write you a letter. After that, nothing. Or at least I'm going to try to do nothing. I'm going to ignore you the same way you've been ignoring me for months. I can't just do that though without one more try. This is going to be my last try. I'm going to put everything out there for you to know and then you can make the decision; the ball will be in your court. Depending on what you do and how you react, I'll know what you really feel, hopefully. I don't think that you'd be able to read this letter and do nothing unless it really is over for you, if you really don't care about me or anything anymore.
-Me.

KA-
UM, what's up with this Tori shit? You know I don't believe it but she obviously had a reason to think it... whatever. I want to go out to dinner tomorrow, but you won't. And about the frosh, ugh. It's going to be maddddawk. You better were something formal or I'll cut you. Love you ahahah

JC-
Aw, you are the cutest thing ever. I'm in love with your eyes and always have been. Thanks for the drawing of you in 10 years, LMAO. You're such a good friend.

Yoooou,
You're a really sweet guy, really. You were the sweetest today. I have completely fallen for you. The feeling is .. I don't know. I know we feel the same about eachother but I don't want to be just the gir you hug,grab, kiss and whatnot. I want to know if this is real.

Yooou,
I'm not like that. Stop talking.

i guess this is how life will be.
passing by in corners. trying to forget all of those mistakes.
i'm not that happy but i've learned to be satisfied with what i've been given.
i just wish that i could just shake it off but i can't and it bugs me so much that i don't know why.

I dont love you.

I love her.

I finally got to talk to you! Why do I like you yet dislike you at the same time? You're so sweet, but you have a temper. I wonder why that is..? I need to talk to you more.


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Gah, it's just a game. No need to get all worked up about it.

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OMG. Do you ever run? You were like.. crying.

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I blockedededed you.

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Haha. I feel so sorry for you two..

Wow. wow wow wow. I never thought this would happen to me. I mean, falling for a friend would be bad enough but my sister? Are you sure that you care about my feelings? Because you seem to be doing the most hurtful thing you could ever do to me.

I poured my heart out to you! But why can't you just feel the same way? I'm trying to get something out of you.. but nothing. I mean, i pretty much know you feel something for me.. but it just hurts when you tell me you'd basically dump your gf for my sister.. but you would never do that for me. I'm starting to think we'll never ever be together. But it's probably for the best.

I'm just shocked and hurt. And i hope this doesn't hurt our friendship. As for the way I feel about you... this changes everything. And i hope you know what your doing. Because i hope you know that unlike you, my sister would never want to hurt me. And it's never gonna happen between you two.

My thoughts about you have changed in pretty much a day. And that's kind of sad on my part. I thought I loved you, but love doesn't end in a day. Maybe i just dont know you as much as i thought i did.

______,
Strange. I always say the dumbest things around you. Then you seem annoyed or something, but am nice the next day. I don't know. Maybe it's just your personality. Why do I get so upset at the pointless things you say? Many people would probably say liked you or something, but I don't have that "feeling" in my heart. You know what feeling when your heart sort of "flutters"? Yeah. I don't feel that...I haven't felt that way about anyone in a long time. Goddamn. Why do I feel so corny? -.-"

____,
I hate you. How can you not feel guilty when you take her money? You're an adult now. You've BEEN an adult. Why can't you just act like it? I love how you can fool other people into thinking you're so "great" and "intelligent". I can see through you, though. I know how terrible you can be.

______,
Please dont' leave me.
Ever.
I'm so scared of whats going to happen. So..scared..

Haku,
I kind of miss you. I miss our talks. You might not miss me or any of the talks we used to have...though...but...that's okay. I just wanted to tell you, today when I was at school, I was thinking about how you told me that you drank a whole bottle of ketchup. I started cracking up and probably looked like a complete dork, because everyone surrounding me was quiet. I also started thinking about the time you told me you were going open a restaurant..and there'd be thousands of people standing outside the restaurant just waiting to get in. And..even if the pope was at the end of the line, you wouldn't let him cut those thousands of people. You'd just make the pope stand in the back of the line, just like everyone else. Hahaha, yeah....

You know, I wonder if you'll even read this message. I hope things are okay with you. I guess I'll talk to you sometime, even though I know for sure they'll be "awkward silences" and such.
- Chihiro.

Oh my, I can't believe I just realized how freaking annoying you are. Gah, really. It's not that I don't like you, but the things you do, the way you act just aggravates me. Blah.

Sigh honey, I don't know what to do. I know that I love you, and that you care for me... but sometimes I'm not really sure, about anything. I feel like we don't really do anything, that we don't take advantage of the beautiful weather, etc. And, I've been telling myself to ignore your bad traits, but sometimes, when I'm just thinking about us, I can't stop wondering about things... Meh, I hope tomorrow is good. You owe me a surprise! Heh.

Sigh, sometimes, I just feel that I need someone to talk to; someone unbiased and objective that won't judge me. I feel like I have a lot to let off, things I can't tell my boyfriend or any of my friends. Sigh.

_________________, TALK TALK TALK TO ME, OK SHALL I GIVE YOU A HINT?! YOUR ONE OF MY FAVORITE MODS!

____: STOP F**KING FOLLOWING ME!!!! ur f**king annoying!!!!! sh*t i just want 2 hang with my friends. But no u have to follow me. LEAVE ME ALONE for once. If u DO NOT stop following me. I'M SERIOULY GOING 2 HURT U!!!!! This time im not lying. This time its not a joke. This time will be real.

To me: I am so glad u have started reading again. Hopefully u wont stop reading. Like u do with other things u get obsessed in, but after a while u just dump them. Hopefully u just stick to this reading stuff and not dump it for the computer.