Yep, you guys know what to do.

To ___________ :
Aw, I hope you feel better love! We will have a crazy good time tomorrow!!!

To all my friends:
Everyone, enjoy tomorrow and tonight! They will be awesome fun :)

--Teesa

to guy: ... wow. i think i like you i dunno, maybe...

Mmm...wow. Today was your last day. I still can't get over it. Really, I'm going to miss you bunches and bunches. You're the second one. Hahah I can't wait to meet your mum. And yeah. Just have fun at your new school, kick ass, then come back here. You know I love you. Yesterday...I will NEVER. forget yesterday. <3

wtf is your problem. how're you gonna say you'll call someone back and then never PICK UP THE EFFING PHONE. and then you act like they have no right to be mad? stop thinking of yourself. YOU ARE SO SELFISH. and especially after you guys are gonna hang out the next day. wth you obviously have NO COMMITMENT TO OTHER PEOPLE. stop FCUKING DITCHING me you dumb spoiled selfish ho.

dearyou. i hope all's going well. i can't get on aim to check because my parents will end up reading whatever conversation we might have.. but i'm glad that we got to rehearse today. i saw you about an hour ago and i miss you already. good luck on s&e tomorrow.. to all of us actually. my thumb is kind of dying. you are an incredible musician with more talent than the other two.. i don't care if you don't think so. i love you.

to my future lover
hey boo! do you know, that i miss you so much? and i can not wait until i see you and hold you in my arms, or better yet, have you hold me in your arms. hehe goshes! wouldn't that be nice? of course it would. everytime we talk you make me smile soooooo big....and i swear to you, everytime after our conversation my cheeks want to just die out on me...i miss you so muchies! lols...but the thing is, i don't know what you're thinking sometimes..sometimes i am for sure you like me and want to be with me, but then theres those times when sometimes i just feel like you don't want anything to do with me....i don't know..it's just weird...i wish i could just ask you how you feel about me, but i dont know how to ask you. it's just weird....lols....but if you ever asked me how i feel about you, i'll be sure to answer you with complete honesty. that is how much i like you, i am willing to give you my most honest answer. and that answer is: i am in like with you boo.

____;;
fcuk you. i fcuking dislikeyou to the maxx. go take you and your 'friends' and leave. everyone is so sick of you and ____. and like i mean EVERYONE. just get out of my face. die bitch, die. you 'think' i'm your friend. THINK AGAIN. ever since you started this shit with everyone, i like want you out of my life for like ever. you know i didn't like you in fourth OR fifth. and you had takin my 4th/5th grade best friend and changed her. fcukin' attention whore. go get a life. stop manipulating people, and get some REAL FRIENDS. stop acting like you are the shit. stop being a cry baby about everything. and now you're taking my new best friend and you're trying to change her too! i don't fcukin care if you think i'm jealous because you hang out with her. i don't give a shit, that's your problem. just, like, leave. you messed with to many people, now you know how it feels. fcuking bastard.

goodday.

</3 monica

Its funny you said that, because youre the reason. Havent you noticed ? And it truly is all your fault.
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I dont know what to think anymore. Im not sure if i still love you.

MM.. Bella i have the same problem. i cant really say i love you to the person i do love. yet its such a bitch thats keeping us from sharing our love with each other. when are you going to learn.. that is you keep on trying to get P**sy from other girls.. [hoes*cough*] thats not gonna get chu a wife? your a player. deal with it please. =] do it for me.

please, dont let me catch you lying to me. because i know you do, it's obvious. it's not like i stop you from doing it. and i know you well enough that what you say you're doing is bs.

or.. am i overreacting?

Mmm, the last two days with you have been perfect. I loved every moment of it, from waking you up with a kiss, to lunch, to the mall, to Starbucks, to ihop, to our long talk about the future, to the comedy club. I especially enjoyed talking to you about the future. I feel so happy with you and that talk really made me feel good about it too. I love you so much, and I'm so glad you decided to come with me to the club. It was hilarious too. Hehe, sure there was that unneccesary part where we had to go to Brooklyn, but it was still good. I'm glad you liked your 'gift.' Haha, I don't mind spending money on you; you do it all the time on me. And, this is a give and take relationship hah. Everything was so wonderful today and I'll never forget it. It was definitely one of our best times together, and I look forward to the next time we'll be able to spend the whole day together. Hopefully ice skating on Tuesday? Heh, I love you honey. Enjoy your weekend <3.

S,
I saw the way you looked at me. The way you sat next to me. The way you tried to get close to me. Lol, what a loser.

today was fun. i love spending time with you. we're so 'electric', lol! oh man. i'm so bad at keeping surprises from you...but so far, i've got one thats going pretty well, but it's so long until i'm supposed to give it to you...somehow, i think i'll be able to keep this one a complete surprise.

____, you looked fantasico today. ;] ilu.

Rachael(muh buddy!), your a caring friend. i am so glad that we almost have all of our classes together. oh and Lindsay(my other buddy!), you too.

_____, how can you say that about my friends?? you leave them alone. ><

Preach it Paulina, PREACH. Can i get a hollerlujah.

I really dont know.After everything that happened, i dont think anythings going to happen. I struggled with it all so much, those months after. And I still struggled then, with the love. People telling me I was in it, but i just wouldnt accept it. But I know i did. I just, didnt really feel it properly, because i wouldnt let myself. Like i said before, to everyone who told me. I dont, because i cant, because i wont, because i shouldnt. So I didnt. And i truly thought i was over you, i thought I really let go, and i really thought i moved on. But it was like, holding onto a rope, and running fast and hard, with the rope tied down back, behind me in my past, somewhere in march, between april, and as soon as the rope ran out, I was yanked back to where my heart always stayed. And i cant keep going like this. Im in highschool, i should be, broadening my horizons, not focusing on you. Because I know you dont feel the same, or at least. Thats what you told me. And I dont think you ever even did. Because i fell in love with someone, who led me on. Telling me, that you really did want to be with me, and that we would be together again someday. And i went on with that bullshit. But maybe you werent lying. Maybe, it just isnt time for an us yet. But maybe you were. Maybe you really didnt like me. Maybe you were trying to get rid of me, and let me down easy. I think it was you, tryna shake me off. And im just mad. and sad. Because its like ive been lying to myself, and i just found out. And i feel stupid, utterly stupid. Because of everything that happened. But, because of everything that DIDNT happen.

Im listening to our song ... The one we danced to.

____:
Don't steal my shit and then run off to hide.

_____:
I'm trying to forget. I really am. I'm trying not to care. And you have no idea how painfully hard it is. Because you just don't care.

_____:
I'm sorry. I hope your situation gets better. You're like a brother to me, the brother i never had.

_____:
I'm sorry. I just can't do it. I'm sorry.

____:
Please forgive me. I hate being on stage :(

_ _ _ _ _:
You forgot me.

Dear You,
Please. Please. Please.
Please. Please. Please.
Please. Please. Please.
Please. Please. Please.
Please. Please. Please.
Please. Please. Please.
Please. Please. Please.
-Me.

BABYYYYYYYY :D you make me so happy. Even when you're not with me. The thought of you. And I love how I can live so freely and happily without you. I LOVE YOU

_____: You really seem like an awesome person. I hope you hold onto that fire inside of you. I think a whole breed of amazing, super human, wonderful people were born in the York area lol.

_____: I only get to see you every so often, and every time I do it's like a breath of fresh air. I really wish you would stay put in Maryland lol. You keep going all over the place, which I think is great, you seem really ambitious. And such a good feel about you. A quiet confidence. I admire your voice. I never thought i'd say this to a guy, but never spike your hair up again, lol. I really like it like you had yesterday. It's funny, we've been crossing paths each summer since I was 10 I think. Funny, huh lol. We're both growing up, going off to college...you maybe out of the country. You have to promise me atleast dinner sometime in the far off future. I don't want to loose contact with such an amazing person.

_______: Seeing you just brightened my day today. Really, what you did just meant the world. You have no idea how much I needed to see you! lol how much I needed to do our dance. I could laugh, and not fake it. You've been through so much stress, but you came out of it shining. I never thought i'd see you cry, but you are beautiful to look at when you cry. I'll never forget those times! Our falalas and when you gave me the biggest hug i've ever gotten in my life at the end of the play. I'm serious. No one has ever hugged me that tight. not a boyfriend, not my dad, not any family member. You just held me so tight and really truly cried, and man, i will never forget that. I had to write a frickin poem about it! haha. We just totally click. Not many people do. But from the beginning it was like embracing the other part of ourselves. Your friendship means the world to me, i love you to death! We need to do another play together.

thanks for making your move yesterday. because god knows i wouldn't have done anything to you if you didn't do anything first.

ahhh i'm so sorry. iloveyou darling. now let's hang out today.
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damn i don't really like how you treat me sometimes. i wish you could be more gentle and softer and sweeter... like he was. haha yea. ;D hmmm good memories...
ugh i don't know. just please be sweeter to me?

Anyone:
I want to be loved.

____: So. You say you like me. You act like it. Then you blow me off. Like I'm yesterdays garbage. Then you start having feelings again for your ex. She's crazy about you. You know it. Now your on a ski trip with your friends. Having a great time. Having fun and none of this phases you. You don't know how much you mean to me. I've loved you for the past 2 years. 2 years. You don't care. You never cared. We are perfect for eachother. I keep trying to change myself to be what you want. Then you end up liking the opposite. So I'm sitting here listening to sad music that reminds me of you that you once said reminded you of me. I feel like shit.

Stop f**king with my emotions. Tell it straight forward. Stop bitching around the bush.

Note to self,
You should seriously consider professional help. Your mind is filled with fictitious views of life. You are self centered and a jerk. Uggh. You make me sick.

You,
We have nothing left but faded memories. I hate you for toying with my emotions. We could have so much more. Whatever. It's not important.

You,
All i can say is sorry.

_ _ _ _ _,
You are.. gorgeous, adorable, amazing. You have an amazingly sweet, soft voice that I adore oh so much. And oh, I love your smile as well.
If only you felt the same way about me the way I feel about you.
Just seeing you makes me happy. Since September 23, 2004.. I never stopped thinking about you. I never stopped watching the video you and my brother made (until that is, it was accidentally erased by my brother). I think I love you. I know I like you. I like you a lot.

I'll see you in like an hour babeeeee
And I really, really hope, that God-willing, you will go tonight with an open heart and open mind. I love you always and I just pray that you will come to know him for who he really is, bum.

all i have to say to you is backstabber *

i miss you . thanks for the nice texts *

Happy birthday!
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Happy birthday to you, too!
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Damn, which one should I go to?!

it may not seem like it,
but i'm still thinking of you.

Do you like me the way I like you??

to my boo:
hey baby!! lols i've missed you so much today! i am sooo sorry. i've been at my parents..and yeahh...you know how that goes...lols but anyways....i had soo much fun talking to you last night and what not....lols...that was one of the most fun times in my life. lols....you're so cute =] you make me smile so freaking much...i really hope i'm not just another girl to you. you're extremely fun...hehe i miss you. i don't want to be just another girl, seriously. if one day i find out i am, i will honestly and seriously cry. blehh..!!! that would be so freaking wrong of you..>< i mean i know you're not perfect and i understand that. but i really hate the thought of you ruining your health with weed...i just really don't like it, but if you say you only do it in special occasions...i guess........i can accept it.......i guess...but i really hope you come into realization that it serves no greater purpose for you to do that...><!!! i miss you dang it! i wish i could be close to you....hehe ah well...good night sweet heart!

Get the hell out of here, because no one wants you around.

____: I had a great time on MSN chatting with ya. by the way, hope you feel better. I heard you were sick with a sore throat. wait..will you be at school Monday? I must message you to know! ahh.

____: ilu. ilu. heh. I just like the things about you. it sticks out. *love struck* you. have. a. girlfriend. *twitch* LOL. that won't stop me. yay. I like you. YAY! *x100,000 throb emotion* when i think about you i have good feelings. but hey, i heard that you had a gf like a loooong time ago. so i don't know what happened to ya'll! i'm talking crazy! i don't care! so yay! happy feelings! yay! your ONE of the reasons why I go to SCHOOL! wait, no. your the only reason.



_____: don't worry about your stupid ex-boyfriend. he's a jerk. he made a fool out of you, and you cannot make a guy let you do that to you. he's foolish ever since he broke up with you. it was a really weird, odd, and stupid reason why he broke up with you. don't worry about it. i'm here for you. i'll make you feel better.

to me: FOCUS on your Math grade. thanks, me!

how are you?

we haven't talked in a while. I've acted like everything's alright. But the truth is, they aren't. They aren't at all.

It's always been my weakness...you've always been my weakness. Your voice still makes me feel tingly inside. Things went down the drain.

"have you ever loved and lost somebody, wish there was a chance to say i'm sorry, can't you see, thats the way i feel, about you and me"

You seemed to be moving on just fine, though. I'm glad you've found happiness in being single. But i can't. I feel so alone without you. I know you're not going to read this, which is why i'm posting it. Because the truth is i don't have the courage to tell you my feelings anymore. I've been hurt so much by you, i can't just forget that. I forgive, but never forget. Every inch of me that i gave to you, i got less than half in return. I can't afford it anymore. I know things between us werent the best, but somehow i can't let go. Things just felt so right with you. even when things got really ugly, it still felt right. I felt comfort.

But i can't tell you any of this. My pride won't allow it. I've swallowed my pride to be with you, i can't put you before me anymore. I can't let you use me anymore. I can't let me feelings for you get the better of me anymore.

I miss you. But i can't have you back. You're so far away...

oh god, i'm trying so hard to froget about us....but i can't

so don't forget about us. <3

you've only been gone for 20 minutes yet it feels like forever and i miss you...

To ______________ :
Yay, I got to see you play yesterday!! You were so good, and one of the three stars of the game I freaking love, love, love, love, love you =]

To ______________ :
Haha, I got to dance with you yesterday...it was fun :)

To ______________ :
Thanks so much for having us all over at your house. Sorry, I couldn't stay up all night with you guys, but it was such a long and hectic day. Thanks again!

--Teesa

glad to hear that you were gonna ask me out. but whatever. ha. =] im such a tease.

P,
You need serious therapy. Stop acting like you're the shit, which you're not. Nobody cares if you know celebrities. Nobody cares if you have an Usher body. NOBODY GIVES A FCK. Might as well go marry yourself.

_______ I shall call you today, you better pick up the phone!

_______ Please take a hint, I dont want you...ugh.

Parents:
Thank you for being such paranoid assholes.

Dear Teesa,
Thanks for just sitting in the car with me while I was cussing and hitting things and crying and being a dumbass like always.
-Me.

Dear You,
Aughralkjgra;ogjlakjgar.g I'M SO ANGRY. YOU LITTLE PATHETIC f**k. I don't even feel like it's worth the time or energy right now to type out what I want to say. Plus, I already said it in the cB Diary.

-Me.

dear ______: you've become SO annoying. seriously. f**k off!

___________,
I ike like you, not just like you.

urgh. bfgnbskjf their you go again. doing that shit you always do to me. why?

gods i miss you right now.

i hate you. i can't wait until i can leave this hellhole. everything you say drives me crazy. people say i'm lucky...they don't know the whole fxcking story.

St__p___a: it would be nice to talk you you sometime..

T,
Leave my wife alone. She doesn't want you. She wants me.

E_____: i miss you... youve changed... i dont know what to say to you anymore...

C______:Keep on praying... she'll realise that the friends around her are shallow and come back to become youre best friend

To Christina:
Aw, I'm just sorry that I couldn't do or say anything to make you feel better. I was about to cry seeing you like that. But just know that things will get better. I know things seem really dismal right now, but this is just another obstacle that I know you're strong enough to get over. I love you.

To _____________ :
Okay, I can't explain it. But I'm thinking of you so much. It makes me so mad. I don't know why I like you, I just do. And it makes me mad that when I finally like someone like you, I don't even get to see you. I want to talk to you again.

--Teesa

______,
wow, you are the most selfish brat EVER. i cant believe you just ignored the dress and stomped off in your room like that. and dad didnt even do anything! he just said "oh alright" and sat the dress down. DHIFRHPIFPWHIFWHIAPAWFIHPFR do you have any dea how bad i felt for him?

_____,
i dont know what to do with you. i mean, you want to stay together, and yet we're never going to see eachother again? wtfreak? and we have no communication either. i mean... O_O