my faith in You exceeds all the worries that could ever pass in my life, Lord. thank You for Your grace and patience. It's all filled with Your glory, Lord, and thank You for this blessing waiting to happen. it is more than a pleasant surprise, the way I have generally handled this situation. I know for a fact that it is You that has changed me, God. Jesus I am so in love with You...

______ You're awesome

I actually thought I moved on from you but when George showed me a very recent picture of you, I was reminded of our old times back in Springdale. You broke my heart but we had the best friendship ever.

maybe i'll call you tonight.

i feel like giving you a ring.

Im probably never going to see you. And it makes me sad. But maybe this is better for me. Cos I already know you are perfectly fine already without me.

I always knew that we were better friends than significant others. Thanks for last night. Good times.

_______ Of course, you didnt answer your phone like expected. Maybe I shall try again tonight -sigh-

Heh, today was another wonderful day. Man, I'm loving these days spend with you. Too bad it has to end soon =(. I love you so much and I'm glad things are going so smoothly between us, and I hope it doesn't get ruined. <3.

Glad to see you finally showing me who you really are. I believe now that this relationship with flourish. I've learned so much from this but most importantly is that I need to depend on God. And I need to trust that in time, He will reveal everything that I need to know. He certainly has and I can see how much I misjudged you, this relationship, myself. You know how much I care about you now. I know that you feel the same for me. I just pray we'll both be satisfied with that and continue to let this grow. I do love you, you know I do. I'm not gonna reply to your text from today as we do need complete seclusion from each other for a bit, but I will be looking forward to your call tomorrow night.

to self:
in response to your own question of how you could bring yourself to love someone who hates Him so much, here is the answer.... because He does too. =)

-bleh. i thought about you all day. why? i have no idea.
-2 weeks. just 2 weeks. i`ve been waiting for 2 months to see you and now i just have to wait 2 weeks. gosh. finally.

K-
I lied. I'm scared, I'm so scared. So scared that you are going to realize how amazing you are and how un-amazing I am. Scared that you're going to get "upset" again and find out what if. I love you so much. I'm scared of my own emotions.

B: *sigh* you are really starting to... i dunno. you never talk to me, and when you do there's always something that i'm annoyed about. i doubt you're gonna be able to 'make' me like you enough to be your gf. i might give you like 1 chance, a date... that's about it. i am really tired of the whole thing

G: ... we never talk anymore. we used to be such great friends. and yet, you haven't changed at all. you're still perverted, just more quiet about it. what happened?

Heh. You haven't been much of a friend lately. You ignore the things I say and you ask me what I say the nexy day and you're so surprised and barely heard it. Psh, sure you dislike them. You're just a fake.

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Stop complaing about your pathetic life and do something about it. You told me you don't like holding grudges and want to solve all of them. How many have you resolved? Oh yeah, NONE.

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Gosh, what have I ever done to you? You start bad mouthing me and you don't even know me. I come into a new class and you start talking sh*t. Stop annoying everyone, gosh. Stop bragging about how many calories you can burn on the bike or how many curl ups you can do. You talk sh*y about Hargroves, then on the walk you pretend like you're her best friend, and when we get back, you start talking sh*t about her again.

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How is that not scientific? I deserve an A and what do I get? An F!

jennie:
it's only been a bit more than two months since you've passed on. and yet, we don't speak much about you anymore, but i can tell, we still grieve on. it's such a pity to have someone taken away at an age so young, where we still had so much to live for, to strive for. but thankyou again for teaching me the lesson that carpe diem. seize the day. how true those words are. you lived your life to the fullest, with no regrets, and yet, you were so amazing in so many ways. i know you're reading this. and i want to you to know that we miss you so. but thank you, for teaching me to open my eyes. jennie lou, i miss you. smile for us up there.

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these months have been so hard for you. and i'm surprised at how much stronger you've become. in a mere two months, you've lost your best friend, and now you're on the brink of losing another girl who once was a best friend of yours. yet, how do you manage to stay so strong? and how funny was it, that it was when we lost jennie, you weren't the one crying on my shoulder. instead, it was the other way around. although you say you were numb, but i can see how much you've grown, how quickly you've matured. these months have been hard, but you've stood up again, and you're willing to try things you've never tried before. hey love, i'm so proud of you. thank you for everything, and all our memories.

Baby, im sorry for all the wrong I did. Please forgive me

All those hours of crying. All those days I missed you. And I didn't see how you changed. Now I don't want to be around you? Can't you tell? I don't answer your calls and I don't want you to come around. Don't INSULT me because you're a whore. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. All that time. Thinking of the future. It's all gone now, it's just a shame you couldn't have seen anything. Don't blame it on your mother. You're just a whore by nature. So don't try to spoon feed me that bullshit. What happened to your intellect? Or was I too young and too blind to see that you were just as immature as me? Now you don't believe in anything, and I don't believe in you. And then you ran off and sold yourself the first chance you got. No one cares about Trent Reznor and your pathetic attempts to soothe whatever scars your parents "made" when you we're young. And you admitted you hated your father just because you didn't like his personality. How'd you get so f**ked up? Well, I'm not taking you anymore. Stop calling me. And stop being so pissed when I don't pick up. Stop being pissed because I have a life and you can't accept that. Stop living in this fantasy world where you have a social life and then you have me. Stop believing that all I have is you. You never knew me before we met and you haven't known me since you left for Europe and didn't call for three months. Stop being a hypocrite. Stop thinking that I'm supposed to fit you like a velvet glove, and keep you warm when you cry at night. Stop trying to tell me all this crap about how no one's ever loved you. I loved you. I loved you for years. And I almost fooled myself that you loved me. But you're not capable of love are you, you selfish bitch. You think I'm going to talk to you after you ADMITTED that it wasn't me you call every night, it was someone who listens. Want to know why I didn't come to your birthday? 1. Because you LIED to me about the plans. You canceled me picking you up at the airport with your father and you penciled everyone else before me afterward. 2. Because I didn't want to see you. And why I didn't want you to come over when you came for Christmas? I couldn't face you after I had admitted I loved you. I mean, would YOU be able to face you if you were me? If you had believe in love? If you had been hurt??? God, Adrienne. What's this 3 years??? 3 years I've lost myself? Why do you have to take yourself so seriously all the god damn time. You don't leave any room for love. You don't leave room for fun. You want to play grown-up so badly, and all you are is a scared little girl screaming for attention. I hate you, and I hate people like you. Don't call me in tears. You called me weak? I've only cried to you once, and you tried to analyze the fact that my aunt lost her baby. You tried to ANALYZE why I was so upset. Just rot in hell. I never thought I was capable of so much hate to one person. Maybe if you hadn't have tried to hurt me so much. Tried to insult me every chance you f**king got. YES, I have an accent. I can't help that very much. I mean, even when we were having fun, you just wanted to put me down. And we're you really that jealous of my girlfriend? Because ever since I told you about Cath you're acting like me and you are in this twisted relationship where you can act like it doesn't exist. And where you try to make me jealous with Britinee or whatever her name is. Or these random orgies you get every night in Boston -- Oh you high flyer you!!!. If Britinee is so awesome, if Britinee always returns your calls, if Britinee is like "pure sunshine being injected into your system" or however you described it, why don't you just drag her down with you? Don't bring me into it anymore. Stop acting like you have such a wonderful life in college. You don't even know anyone there. Who got you through all those lonely days and nights? Not me, must have been your damn 24/7 hot line.

And you said you thought we had an understanding. Lazy bitch.

how do you not have anything to tell or say to me? loser. =]

whitmann#30- you freakin` beezie. socked me in the eye. shit. thats why i was kept hitting you back. bitch, egh.

Paulina -- Are you from the Bay ?

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I miss you. And i saw you today. Just a glimpse. But it was enough to make me sad. I cant believe that I probably will never see anything of you, but a glimpse.

tai gi anh ma trai tim cua em dau buon qua....><
em mong mot ngay anh xe hieu mot dieu, dieu do la em thuong anh nhieu lam...
tai sao anh phai lam em dau dan qua vay?

sorry double post! ><!!!!!

you're doing it again..
Or maybe it's just me..
Anywho tomorrow's our anniversary..

I'm sorry but I can't help but reflect on
what's happened to us during the past month.

You can kinda blaim me for the lack of talking..
But I want things to change, so I'm trying to change.
All I want from you is to tell me you're still there..
Talk to me. Let me know I still have a friend..

It's driving me off the walls..
Do this for me..
please?

i am going to shoot you in the head soon.

you too. ugh.

physics: I HATE YOUUUU!! $%^&*()

i miss you babe...my fishy! lol...oh man. i hope whistler works out...

PS,
Don't go to me with all your problems. I frankly don't really want to hear about him. Hell, I could live without talking to you. Walk away. Don't look back. Don't even say my name when you see me tomorrow. And it's not because I hate you. Far from it. I just don't want to hear your voice anymore.

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Friends are friends. Be mature. It's cool. I won't freak out on you, let's not be so high school.

____:
you are really getting on my fxcking nerves. stopstopstopstopstop. stop annoying me, stop nagging me. i can get the damn thing done alright. i don't need you breathing down my neck every freaking second. freaking hell. askldjfal;kdjgal;. now go away.

-----,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I LOVE YOU!

_____:
You confuse me. A lot.

_____:
You confuse me too. What is it with _________ guys? Or is it all guys???

_____:
What is it you want? Give me a sign.

_____:
Please please please get a life. It's not my fault i read fast or that i'm better than you. Learn to control yourself and whatever, just STOP NAGGING ME PLEASE.

You,
I hate the way ou talk to me. Aaah. It eats me up inside. "Mmm. maybe i'll call you", "IDK, maybe we can do something", or my absolute favorite "We can do something if you want me to" GAWD. You are an ass. You've strangled me in your love. You got me darling. You mean the world.

i'm so sorry. iloveyoupleasedontbemad.
________________________________________

ugh. you got on my nerves today. what the hell... be nicer. you're not the shit.
________________________________________

don't fcuking steal my shit, you manwhore. seriously what the FCUK is your problem. you need to stop acting like a whiny little bitch that talks shit about people behind their backs. you are NOT awesome. you're a LOSER with an attitude problem. and you also can't control what you say. WTF your fake tourette's syndrom is NOT cool and it's not funny. so just stop being pedro's bitch and don't fcuking take my pencil ever again, ok?

woman dang. See, we were together, then we fought, so we split up.

then we just didn't even talk for a while cus' we hated each other. Now we sorta talk, but it's not the same...until after school today. Man...

it's funny how everything changes and then we look back and wonder to ourselves, "what happened?" then for that very moment in time we feel rueful but we snap out of knowing that what's done is done-- wondering whether or not it's in our futures to ever meet them again.

______ I don't understand you sometimes but I love you nonetheless.

i Ma_t;
please come to the dance..

To ___________ :
I hope to see you soon :) You better be there when I come to visit..or else I will be very sad.

To ___________ :
Please come to the party! I understand you don't really want to, but c'mon. Most of the people you will like will be there! It will be loads of fun =]

To ___________ :
Why haven't you called me? Hm. You said you would a LONG time ago, and now I'm mad. Just a little though. Well, hopefully, I will see you soon.

--Teesa

thanks for nothing m_hal. k__s.

___i'm on the phone with you right now. you're playing sc. lol go online so we can play together ~

Dearyou,
Hey. You am so sorry like x 7488. Mmmm. You know i love you. So much. Aaaw. You are always there for me. Honestly, it's not my fault though. I mean, you should have told me before. The kiss meant nothing, nothing, nothing. We're over, I'm over, blah, blah. You know you mean the world. Stop being so emo. You seem over it for the most part, but i read your post. Sorry, darling.

Youyou,
Quit being so retarded. Remember the telephone, it works both ways.

Youyou,
Sorry for not being helplessly thrilled being with you lately. I'm not sure. Things are strange between us, sorta. I'm soo confused about us. I'm glad we met. So glad. Just quit being so clingy. Take them claws out my arm.

Youyou,
You need to call me less and your girlfriend more. Get the hell away before i call the cops. RAWR!

Youyou,
You are fricken hilarious. haha. I'm sorry for making fun of you yesterday. It's just so cute the way you thought-- never mind. Hehe

Youyou,
Your are an ass. Quit torturing him. It's fricken irritating. Like soooo bad. I feel bad because i was actually getting close to you, like so close. I trusted you with stuff that have never left my lips. AAh. But the magic is over and you must know that.

Youyou,
Everytime i see you cry, it tears me up inside. Put a smile on.

Youyou,
I'm so excited about us writing. I hope you got the letter i sent. Hey, don't forget to call me. Just remember the time difference. Yay us. Yay penpals.

Dearnooneinparticular,
I want someone to that i can trust to be alone with and not have to worry about having to explain to him why he can't get down my pants. I want someone that i can have support me with my dreams and my future. I want someone that i can trust with my the things that sound out of place when they escape my brain and sail through the air. I want someone I can talk to on the phone for hours and not have one moment of awkward silence. I want someone to send me flowers for no good reason. I want someone who I can support and watch them suceed in something they love and enjoy. I want someone who I can write love letters to and tear them up. I want someone, anyone, to love me. you ♥.

Double Post. Oopsie.

____: Pick one pick one pick one pick one! You can't keep us waiting forever. Like you told me once, friends with forgive you, but your heart never will.

Thanks so much for a great past week. <3. I hope you enjoy your day back to school hah. I'm sorry about the mixup with the fish company, and I understand how much it sucks. But, I'm sure it'll get better. Hmm, maybe you'll be free Friday to spend with me? Ahah. But yeah, I loved every moment I spent with you, and I really liked today too, even though we didn't do anything. It's just those small moments that we spend together that I love. I love you so much <3. Hope to see you Saturday!

i feel like talking to lots of people today...

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sometimes i feel like you don't like me....i'm sorry for being annoying.

i miss you. haha, yay for you driving alone FINALLY! ilu.

you are such a moron/idiot/ass sometimes but...you aren't bad looking, i have to admit...well, except for one thing.

you are such an ass, and you just don't get it.

don't touch me. i don't like you and you're kinda gross.

i have to admit, even though you're one of my good friends...you're good-looking. and a great person in general. a girl will be quite lucky to have you someday.

your attitude really pisses me off, yet you're still kinda my 'friend'...its kinda stupid.

you're nice. thanks for the help..i appreciate it.

god you're stupidity is a bitch. just shut your mouth already.

Members of the board;

I cant believe you would disregard something as major as this, because of your greed. And I cant believe my parents. They are so selfish ignorant and stupid.

aww.. bella did it go well?

i forgot one person in that long list.

you're ugly. stop acting like you're hot shit...you're not. now shut up.

Despite my imperfections, your insecurities, our disagreements... I love you, ------ ----. I truly do. I don't know what happened for me to care about you so much, but the love is just pouring out. And I know you know. And I know you love me too. So thank you.

why are you hating? sometimes i really dont know what u want.

nyah. i'm sorry for expecting too much and being ridiculous like that...thats just me. i'm sorry.

Dear You,

-Me.

sigh. i know you don't mean it badly and i expect too much from you...i feel horrid because i know i shouldn't, but i do...and i guess you saying that kinda made me feel like you don't care quite that much about me at times...

MSN:
WHY THE F**K AREN'T YOU WORKING?!?!?!?!

_____:
You confuse me. -____-
What exactly do you want?

Karen,

You've been a great roommate. Honestly, I didn't know what to expect when I moved in, and it scared me. Yes, I was scared to the point of trembling. I know it sounds silly, but you know what I mean, right? This is a huge experience, and a new one at that, so I still get a little freaked when I think about it, but you've really helped to make the transition easier. I hope we can get to know each other more and become really good friends.



Hott Hindu Guy,

I know it's been months, but I still think about you. That night at orientation was great. You're intelligent, funny, and just great to be around. I hope you're here on campus somewhere. If I ever find you again, I want us to be friends, for sure, but maybe even more...